Alone
Sometimes I feel so alone. I feel like I have all of these "aquanintances" but no close friends. Erica and I got in an argument today because I went off how I was tired of not being included in what used to be Me, Nickie, Karen and Erica's friendship. Now it's dwindled down too just her and Karen, and I constantly feel like they are doing shit and totally blowing me off. To me it seems like whenever Karen wants Erica around, she's there...but if I ask or suggest something it never seems to happen. I know this problem is stupid, but it makes me feel like shit on a constant basis. She also gave me shit about talking to Nathan while she was over here, I mean she just doesn't understand that it's so hard to be away from him, and so when I can talk to him on the computer(which isn't often), I want to. I guess it's just that I remember the times where we would spend days together, and now I see her and Karen doing that and I'm a little jealous to be honest. I guess it's even harder not having Nathan here to tell him my problems and all that, and it just adds another factor of being lonely. What a depressing entry....on a good note, spazinsarah22 and I are going to see Rent tonight. Yay for musicals and people like Sarah that get excited w/ me over them!