life
how do you live life when your in love? its like not possible ur a nerveous wreak with out him how do you live life like that one minute your happy without a care in the world then the next your crying and freaking out because you didnt get to say good bye i hate this shit ive never been so fucking depressed i dont know how to even think for myself anymore its fucking gay i feel like a medicated zombie when i get lonesome i just sit there and zone the only thing to ease my pain is to fucking cry i know it doesnt make since but still damn why do i have to suffer like this why do i deserve this fucking shit i didnt comit any crimes he did so why do i feel like im on lockdown no matter how much i go out or smoke or get drunk its like i cant fucking hide from it its not fucking fair i just want to scream each and everytime i wake up i can bearly sleep let alone sleep in all i do is mope around all day abd when i finally have some form of light its just dark again i hate guys im tired of all this who would notice