UGH
Didnt have the best day
Got my tree though
Im tired&& have a headache
I want made to be on and its not on all night
I feel like i had sex for like 20 hours last night everything hurts
I need sleep but i dont want to sleep
Im going x-mas shopping tomorrow...that should be interesting.
I now take comfort in this, i cherish you did you ever look did you ever see that one person and the suttle way that they do these things and it hurts so much
So this is not fun. Im not having a good day and i really dont know why i mean nothing is wrong. But like my family is bugging the crap out of me and there yelling and being loud and ugh its annoying. Like i hate being home and ushually i dont mind but i feel so anxious about everything. I wanna talk to brandon but hes not online and i dont want to call him because as much as i talk on the phone with lissa i really do hate the phone. I run out of things to say and i get bored so i just try my hardest not to have to use it. I try not to even answer the phone how sad is that. Idk im just in one of those moods and my dad isnt helping because whenever im mad or just down he likes to nag at me all fucking night like that is gonna help any. Ugh. Im in one of those moods where i wanna sit in my room and just cry all night but i cant cry and i dont have a reason 2 so really its just stupid. I hate almost every person in my school they all suck and are bitchy preps and im gonna shoot myself. I feel like mine and brandons relationship is moving way to fast and not emotionally either. We didnt sleep together or anything but its just moving really fast for only being a week into it and not that i want to wait or anything but i dont want our relationship based on doing shit, i want to be able to hang out without doing shit. Idk maybe im just worrying to much, but i think im gonna talk to him about it tomorrow. I want to see my cousin and her baby but i cant untill like january something when we go down there, but that seems to far away. I cant wait for next weekend my brother and his wife are coming down for New years eve. and im really excited but again seems forever away. Im going to my moms x-mas eve. but i really want to go to my neighbors, weve done something since i was born with them and it seems so weird not having them with us. I hate not being able to seem them all the time, i miss them so much, i mean i miss my friends alot but ive been close to my neighbors since i can remember and i never get to see them i hate it.
Im done bitching now i guess
Pppeaceeeeeee
Just say you would do the same for me