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zero degrees today, and i walked around in sneakers that just about qualify as socks for all the sloppy formlessness of them and doubtful sole protection they offer. i've never been one to miss the day. the sun sucks, friends, and not just because of my gothical inclinations. i have migraines and, for me, sunlight is nearly impossible to see in. i walk down the street in the summer navigating mostly by sound, watching my feet more than anything, squinting.
but over the past few years i've found i really miss the summer, the sunshine during the days, the warmth of evenings that die grandly and slowly. i remember freida telling me that she was in a bad state most winters because of the lack of light, and i'm pretty sure i said 'fuck that i hate the sun'. which is true.
that said, i'm beginning to wonder if i need it more than i used to. even the dim promise of 'warmth' and sunlight drove me out of the house to try and absorb it. i walked aimlessly, up and down alleys in my neighbourhood looking at the defrosting garbage.
just some thoughts on sunshine.
but over the past few years i've found i really miss the summer, the sunshine during the days, the warmth of evenings that die grandly and slowly. i remember freida telling me that she was in a bad state most winters because of the lack of light, and i'm pretty sure i said 'fuck that i hate the sun'. which is true.
that said, i'm beginning to wonder if i need it more than i used to. even the dim promise of 'warmth' and sunlight drove me out of the house to try and absorb it. i walked aimlessly, up and down alleys in my neighbourhood looking at the defrosting garbage.
just some thoughts on sunshine.