Apr 30, 2007 17:00
I can't help but feel like I'm doing something horribly wrong. I want to do these things, move in certain directions but it all seems so unattainable. I don't know where to focus my energy, and hardly feel like I have the resources to do the things anyway. So I just keep puttering away, going from one frivolous thing to another in hopes that one day things might amount to something. People around me are moving towards things they want to do and I just feel like I'm never doing enough, but at the same time I've always got so much crap I'm working on. It all seems like it will just never get me anywhere close to where I want to be and all this trying is just wasted time. But I don't know what else to do.
There's an ad for a survey that says they'll pay $75 to take one if you watch Buffy. I'm thinking about trying it...