I've got to move on with my own life
God the last 3 days have been hell. I just give up. The guy who has made me the happiest breaks things off because we don't know each other. But don't worry he still wants to be friends and talk.. that's just why he wont talk to me. God Damn. I don't understand this at all. How am I supposed to feel? Okay? Well I don't I feel like I did something wrong like usual. I give myself so much shit for the things that go wrong in my life. I relized that I don't need things to make me forget the things I have done or to forget the things I don't want to remember. I am going to change who I am and be the person I want to be. But no matter what I still miss him. I miss knowing he's not mine to hold, or kiss, or hug, or say goodnight to. I miss saying "that's my baby". I wish he would have talked to me before this all droped on my shoulders. I feel like I am lost and don't know what to do but scream. I want to scream so loud and wish everyone heard me. I just want to be able to say the things I need to say to people. I need to tell him how much I miss him and how much I want him to be mine. I want things to go perfect or atleast right for a change. The past month, I have been smiling all day with no worries, and now I feel like something died.
LOST INSIDE OF MY OWN WORLD WHILE EVERYONE IS LOCKED OUT.
True
by Ryan Cabrera
I won't talk I won't breathe I won't move till you finally see That you belong with me You might think I don't look But deep inside the corner of my mind I'm attatched to you mmmm I'm weak, it's true Cause I'm afraid to know the answer Do you want me too? Cause my heart keeps falling faster [chorus] I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing that's true So I will not hide It's time to try anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true You don't know what you do Everytime you walk into the room I'm afraid to move I'm weak, it's true I'm just scared to know the ending Do you see me too? Do you even know you met me? [Chorus] I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats true So I will not hide It's time to try anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true I know when I go I'll be on my way to you The way that's true [chorus] I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats true So I will not hide It's time to try anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true