the fatness of me
fuck. i'm so fat right now. i can't believe i've packed on so much weight since just last summer. i got my 'fat' pants back from tandy, and those are even tight on me.
i disgust myself.
i say i'm fat, but i know in comparison to fatty fat people, i'm not that bad. it's just i'm the fattest i've ever been, ever. even fatter then back in 2001 when i was all depressed and fat.
but at least i'm self aware. i know i'm gaining weight and i'm going about slimming down.
i'm eating less, and when i do eat, i'm eating better.
mom bought me some meal replacement powder and i throw a banana and some peanut butter in with it to make awesome shakes, in my magic bullet, fuck yeah!
i have carrots and apples on hand for snacking and eat rice, or mr. noodle, or whole grain tortilla chips with salsa for dinner.
i'm going to join the ymca. i went yesterday to join, but forgot about the one time $100dollar building fee. so i couldn't join, cause i'm broke. but i made an appointment for financial assistance, which should help me out with the monthly fees, seeing as i make little money.
untill i get a gym membership, i'm going to kept doing yoga and abs at home.
my goal isn't to be stupid thin. right now i just want to be able to wear my jeans. fuck, i want to be able to wear my work pants, i've been going to work in my yoga pants, cause my gut is so fat.
i just want to get back to my normal weight. i'd also like to slim down my arms. it'd be nice to have a thinner arms for when i get my tattoo finished. that'd be hot.
i disgust myself.
i say i'm fat, but i know in comparison to fatty fat people, i'm not that bad. it's just i'm the fattest i've ever been, ever. even fatter then back in 2001 when i was all depressed and fat.
but at least i'm self aware. i know i'm gaining weight and i'm going about slimming down.
i'm eating less, and when i do eat, i'm eating better.
mom bought me some meal replacement powder and i throw a banana and some peanut butter in with it to make awesome shakes, in my magic bullet, fuck yeah!
i have carrots and apples on hand for snacking and eat rice, or mr. noodle, or whole grain tortilla chips with salsa for dinner.
i'm going to join the ymca. i went yesterday to join, but forgot about the one time $100dollar building fee. so i couldn't join, cause i'm broke. but i made an appointment for financial assistance, which should help me out with the monthly fees, seeing as i make little money.
untill i get a gym membership, i'm going to kept doing yoga and abs at home.
my goal isn't to be stupid thin. right now i just want to be able to wear my jeans. fuck, i want to be able to wear my work pants, i've been going to work in my yoga pants, cause my gut is so fat.
i just want to get back to my normal weight. i'd also like to slim down my arms. it'd be nice to have a thinner arms for when i get my tattoo finished. that'd be hot.