Teenage dork fest

[neverdoubt]

My mom saw one of my junior high friends the other day. She asked for my e-mail address, my mom gave it to her, and I just got an e-mail from her this afternoon. This is a person I grew up with. We were very close in the fifth through eighth grades, but we lost touch over the years

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Re: one is silver and the other iron pyrite.

[neverdoubt]

"I have a sort of cynical take on friendships as a result. I don't believe in unbreakable bonds, especially when those bonds were forged in childhood. I believe that friendships will wither and die without at least occasional attention. They cannot be put aside for years at a time and resumed at a more convenient date."

So true. I think many people who read that would disagree initially, but when you really think about it, it's dead on. The only "unbreakable bonds" I have in my life are with my parents and other family members. Happy memories and experiences may forever link you with others, but they sure as hell don't keep you together.

But...

I'm a bit worried that I've started a pattern in my life, a cyclical thing. About every five to seven years I lose touch with the people I'm friends with and I find new friends. When I do this, I fail to maintain contact with the people I once considered friends. For instance, I don't communicate from anyone I went to college with, even though I made some great connections. I can't figure out if this is a conscious thing having to do with my psyche and personality, or if it has to do with the normal development of life (moving on to new things and places, etc). Maybe it's a bit of both. It still concerns me.

One of my friends now is best friends with the same guys he knew in high school. He's 28 years old.

Re: one is silver and the other iron pyrite.

[madprophet]

It's tough to maintain friendships with people you don't see (one of the HUGE benefits of LJ), so maybe that accounts for the cycles. As it happens, I still have several close friendships with people I knew in high school, though many of them weren't friends when I knew them in High school.

Here's another contraversial point of cynicism: I believe that I (and probably everyone else) have room for only a certain number of friendships at any given time. This is probably because of the fact that bonds of friendship require energy and maintenance. There is a limit. Which means that since I've held on to so many friendships from the old days, I don't make new friends easily. What makes this theory so contraversial is the extension into family dynamics. You know that trite story about the young child who throws fits because the new baby is getting all the attention? Mom tells him "just because I love the baby doesn't mean I have to love you any less." The whitest of lies. The new baby will cost that child some portion of his mother's love. Not the degree to which she loves him, but the degree to which he will feel her love.

Now, I'm not going to go so far as to say that arithmetic rules apply. A second child does not cut the love in half. But the expressions of love will probably be distributed between the children--and because those gestures take energy, like maintenance of friendships, there is also a limit.

You can't promote something that doesn't exist

[neverdoubt]

I am an only child. That's the problem. :)

I wonder if, when and if I become a parent, the old adage that you love all of your children equally will hold true.

Yes, and I think what we're talking about here has a lot to do with the difference between friends and acquaintances.