Boom Boom as They Came a Little Closer
Ever feel as if you might be loosing it? Loosing yourself? Growing more violent, caring far less then you should? People disgust you more and more and you want to pull farther back into yourself though you realize to do so you'd forfit the things that in essence, really are all that is keeping you human. Its really not as bad as all that, as I've said before in many ways things are good, I'm content with much. In ways, this becoming is something old, and the anger and hate is fuel. To get things done. It really is walking a fine line, to make sure that things stay in place, that all the breakers and switches are properly set and in place so the whole thing doesn't blow... while running faster and harder then it perhaps otherwise could. I feel like nothing can stop me and my confidence is growing with this black shit again. Its been two years now really since it was here, when I'd snap jaws down on the slightest thing. When I wouldn't tolerate excuses or mediocrity.
I want to be ugly.
I want to be angry.
I don't want to be human.
I want to burn up brilliantly.
All this being said, there is a conflict. I firmly belive that everyone is born either good or bad, that its not only experience that guides our personalities growth. That there is something inside. I was blessed or cursed with alot of light. I know I'm a good person, and I realize at my worst I'll always make a moral discision to do the right thing and to protect those who mean something to me. So take all this as advanced warning, those who fuck with me or the people I consider close will not be granted a smile and a hug from this point on. Those who take people for granted, and expect to find my ear as solace won't find it at all. Remember, forgivness is over-rated, once a piece of shit always a piece of shit. Reformation is a great lie, and what one must ask oneself is this. Is your life honestly long enough to tolerate people who contribute nothing at all to that life? How much time do you have to waste?
This of course isn't pointed at any certain event but rather at alot of things, and is a reflection of my feelings to myself and to people who have and are tolerating bullshit because of pity. Mercy is an amazingly nobel gift, pity is its midget twin brother. Pull your weight motherfuckers.
All this brought to you while listening to one of my new favorite songs, AAA by Strapping Young Lad. Honestly, it sounds like a reflection of my life, so I've got to love it right up at the top with 'The Becoming'. I'll leave you with the lyrics.
Devy In The Corner Of His Teen Year
Born To Run Away
Children In The Middle With The Village Idiot
So He Never Made The Potty Grade
Now Maybe He Pulled A Little Closer
Cold In A Mousy Way
Boom Boom As They Came A Little Closer
Put A Bolt In The Curse Today
Now Devy Has To Eat It In His Own Way
Broke In A Dirty Way
Boom Boom Is The Beating That I Hear In The Night
But No One Hears, So No One Knows...
No And No One Fucks With Me
Devy Wants A Word With The Master
No Need To Run Away
Down On The Road Isn't Easy,
But I Never Would Back Away...
Boom Boom In The Morning With The Night Sounds
No Way To Run Away
Boom Boom As The Boredome Of Monogamy
Hits One More Time...
No One Must Know...
No One Must Know...
No One Must Know...
No One Must Know This Machine...
Devy Got A Taste Of Some Black Shit
Born In Another Way
And It Probably Would Have Been Easy,
But It Never Worked Out That Way
Boom Boom In The Corner With The Well - Soiled
Bound To Amalgamate
Boom Boom As It Kills The Inhibitions
...No More Games
No One Must Know...
I want to be ugly.
I want to be angry.
I don't want to be human.
I want to burn up brilliantly.
All this being said, there is a conflict. I firmly belive that everyone is born either good or bad, that its not only experience that guides our personalities growth. That there is something inside. I was blessed or cursed with alot of light. I know I'm a good person, and I realize at my worst I'll always make a moral discision to do the right thing and to protect those who mean something to me. So take all this as advanced warning, those who fuck with me or the people I consider close will not be granted a smile and a hug from this point on. Those who take people for granted, and expect to find my ear as solace won't find it at all. Remember, forgivness is over-rated, once a piece of shit always a piece of shit. Reformation is a great lie, and what one must ask oneself is this. Is your life honestly long enough to tolerate people who contribute nothing at all to that life? How much time do you have to waste?
This of course isn't pointed at any certain event but rather at alot of things, and is a reflection of my feelings to myself and to people who have and are tolerating bullshit because of pity. Mercy is an amazingly nobel gift, pity is its midget twin brother. Pull your weight motherfuckers.
All this brought to you while listening to one of my new favorite songs, AAA by Strapping Young Lad. Honestly, it sounds like a reflection of my life, so I've got to love it right up at the top with 'The Becoming'. I'll leave you with the lyrics.
Devy In The Corner Of His Teen Year
Born To Run Away
Children In The Middle With The Village Idiot
So He Never Made The Potty Grade
Now Maybe He Pulled A Little Closer
Cold In A Mousy Way
Boom Boom As They Came A Little Closer
Put A Bolt In The Curse Today
Now Devy Has To Eat It In His Own Way
Broke In A Dirty Way
Boom Boom Is The Beating That I Hear In The Night
But No One Hears, So No One Knows...
No And No One Fucks With Me
Devy Wants A Word With The Master
No Need To Run Away
Down On The Road Isn't Easy,
But I Never Would Back Away...
Boom Boom In The Morning With The Night Sounds
No Way To Run Away
Boom Boom As The Boredome Of Monogamy
Hits One More Time...
No One Must Know...
No One Must Know...
No One Must Know...
No One Must Know This Machine...
Devy Got A Taste Of Some Black Shit
Born In Another Way
And It Probably Would Have Been Easy,
But It Never Worked Out That Way
Boom Boom In The Corner With The Well - Soiled
Bound To Amalgamate
Boom Boom As It Kills The Inhibitions
...No More Games
No One Must Know...