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[nevercatchme]

I love it when I can say things without feeling judged. It doesn't happen very often. Lots of times I can say what I'm feeling, not because I know that people won't judge me for it, but because i know that they will not pass bad judgement on me. But when I have something to say that might make me look pathetic or worthless, it makes me happy to say it to someone and know that they are not thinking those things about me. To know that they see past some of the stupid things i do or the strange things I care about. don't like feeling censored where only my normal, non-pathetic thoughts can surface and the things that really need discussing stay buried. They acknowlege that some of the things I feel are dumb, but they do not feel that I am dumb. I can't figure out a lot of my emotions, but it's good to know that a few people can separate me from the crazy disorganization and confusion that is going on with me.

I'm so happy today. I was a little pissy at best buy when I had to listen to rap music while watching video games, but the rest of the day was wonderful. Everything is wonderful now...