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Rememeber the boy i was talking about who i had fallen for a while back? like around prom time ya.. okay well I will start at the begining...... One night at a party a long time ago Sam Sanders got drunk and was like all over me, and for a week or so b4 this party alot of my coworkers had told me that he liked me (and I liked him back) and you kno the saying your true feelings come out when your drunk. so ya i thought that sam actually liked me. But then I was informed that he thought I was childish and imature for not wanting others to drink or smoke, even though i have gotten better and onloy mention how bad smoking is for you and i dont talk about drinking, but that is beside the point. My reasons are very personal and I wasnt ready to share them with him , so I just let it go it wasnt the 1st time that i was called that. So I go on liking him and during the next few weeks me and andy talk about how i should ike him he isnt right for me or what ever and since nothing was happening (only becuase of sam not doing anything) I began to not like him as much and as soon as I almost finish the process of not likeing sam he goes and leads me on again, after work he hugs me and holds me and what not( I rememeber it was the monday that i got back from the lake with andy) and Steven is my witness. so this brings back all the old feelings that i had for him. From then until now andy keeps telling me that he is using me but i dont really belive him because i thought he just had different agenda in mind and i was like sam wouldnt do that he really like me.and then at a party monday night I was playing a video game and sam said let me play , I was on the floor and he came kneeled behind me and leaned over me so he was like huggin me and played for me. Then the night kept on going and he and i flirted i sat on his lap he held me close, gave me a piggy back ride and a wedgie so anyways. I am happy as can be. then last night andy and stevn talked to sam and told him to stop leading me on or he was gonna get hurt (I am so loved) and sam said that monday night was the last night which mean that he was leading me on and he had no feelings for me he was just using me! I couldnt belive it! This made me so mad I siad Like 8 words in 8 hours to him at work and 6 out of 8 of those words were because I needed sumtin at work. I hardly looked at him. I cant belive that he would do sumtin like that when he knew i liked him becuase i told him! I hurts so bad. But oh well next time I will learn. And BTW SAM U SUCK! I have lost all my respect for sam and I dont trust him and our firendship is very damaged and almost nonexsistance all we are right now are coworkers and in 8 eight days we wont even be that! He didnt even give me and appology i just wanna cry.