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i suck...
ok so ive joined the gym and im LOVING it i even woke up at 5:30am just to go get an early morning workout, but the 2 days that i didnt go to the gym i ate pretty horribly, it was a family reuinion and omg,,, so this morning i weigh myself and 74.8kg.. totally ruined me. now i have not been hungry all day and ive only had like 300 calories. but im going to eat dinner but im so angry at myself for letting myself do that and now i cant get the stupid thoughts out of my head of not eating. im all over the place. the gym sorts me out. i actually have alot of fun. so hopefully while im working out tonight i can not think of the 3kg i put on in 2 days and just relax, the weight will come off but my stupid mind thinks that not eating will make it better. arghh sometimes i hate myself more then anyone should.
ok so ive joined the gym and im LOVING it i even woke up at 5:30am just to go get an early morning workout, but the 2 days that i didnt go to the gym i ate pretty horribly, it was a family reuinion and omg,,, so this morning i weigh myself and 74.8kg.. totally ruined me. now i have not been hungry all day and ive only had like 300 calories. but im going to eat dinner but im so angry at myself for letting myself do that and now i cant get the stupid thoughts out of my head of not eating. im all over the place. the gym sorts me out. i actually have alot of fun. so hopefully while im working out tonight i can not think of the 3kg i put on in 2 days and just relax, the weight will come off but my stupid mind thinks that not eating will make it better. arghh sometimes i hate myself more then anyone should.