my dimensions.
Not everyone is going to accept you, you being your personality. I know this. I know that whether they keep it bottled up inside or constantly vent to you, eventually you will know what everyone of significance to your life thinks of you. You’ll know their jealousy, admiration, hatred, love, everything, and it is rarely predictable. Your best friend could contain the purest hatred.
I believe that what affects me, depends on me, as opposed to fate or luck. I believe that I pursue goals not necessarily for the sake of having them, but to have the feeling I get when a goal is met. I study for an A not to have the A, but to feel smart. This is all part of my general personality. Specifically, I am pretty good at picking up on things that aren’t said, and not very good at expressing my ideas and opinions the exact way I’d prefer for them to sound. I’m a nonchalant risk taker with a taste for the unknown, and I don’t like to be alone. I can’t decide whether I love or hate chaos.
I spend a lot of time trying to find the balance of things - the balance between knowing if you need help or if you should go on your own. Dealing with conflicts of the world and personal inner conflicts. Interests and responsibility. I try to continuously open my mind and become aware, but remain composed.
It’s doubtful that there is anyone who is completely tolerable of all the dimensions of my personality. But even if changing your personality is possible, I never would. I trust myself and my mind to create the personality that best fits me, that makes me feel whole and happy. And what makes me feel that way is no one else’s decision, not even fate. It’s all on me.