Back in time for counseling
So, I know it's been a long time. But I need to get this out.
A lot of things are changing in my life. It looks like I'm moving to Kansas City to accept a post-doc job at the medical center. And I'll tell you, I'm more than a little nervous about that.
But even bigger, I'm engaged. And I'm FREAKING OUT! See, I've always been commitment-phobic. With how my parents' marriage went, I have a hard time trusting men. I thought I'd gotten over that, but apparently not. And I can't really talk to my fiancee about it anymore because every time I do, he gets worried because he thinks I'm going to call off the wedding.
I mean, I love him. But I'm just terrified of marriage. What if, ten years down the road, one of us comes home and realizes: "Wow. I can't stand to be around this person another second. See ya'!"
Just. If any of you are married, how did you know things would work out? Or if you decided not to get married, how did you know you needed to get out?
Please somebody help me out here before I do something drastic or stupid.
A lot of things are changing in my life. It looks like I'm moving to Kansas City to accept a post-doc job at the medical center. And I'll tell you, I'm more than a little nervous about that.
But even bigger, I'm engaged. And I'm FREAKING OUT! See, I've always been commitment-phobic. With how my parents' marriage went, I have a hard time trusting men. I thought I'd gotten over that, but apparently not. And I can't really talk to my fiancee about it anymore because every time I do, he gets worried because he thinks I'm going to call off the wedding.
I mean, I love him. But I'm just terrified of marriage. What if, ten years down the road, one of us comes home and realizes: "Wow. I can't stand to be around this person another second. See ya'!"
Just. If any of you are married, how did you know things would work out? Or if you decided not to get married, how did you know you needed to get out?
Please somebody help me out here before I do something drastic or stupid.