Drabbles: 'Ravenous' and 'Longing'
Okay, I am usually a dialogue whore, but my muse is not cooperating with me. Not a single word of actual dialogue! Can you believe it?
Anyway, this Hunger verse (where Spock is really, secretly Sylar) is consuming my brain. Here's a couple more drabbles. And it looks like I'll keep writing scenes as long as I can keep finding synonyms for hunger/hungry. Eep.
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Title: Ravenous
Author: Never
Pairing: Kirk/Spock
Rating: PG-13?
Disclaimer: So not mine.
Warning: AU. Kinda dark.
Summary: More of Spock’s musings as he fights the urge to take Kirk.
Author’s Notes: More of the Hunger verse (where Spock is secretly Sylar!)
***
Meeting himself is an interesting experience. Moreover, the ease at which his other self behaves implies that eventually Spock will be able to arrest his hunger without relying on strict Vulcan teachings. Certainly a worthy goal.
However, at present, it is out of the question.
Spock is ravenous.
This isn't the general hunger for all power that he felt when he still called himself Sylar. No, this hunger is focused solely on Kirk. Jim.
However, he does not allow himself to succumb. He resists the urge to dissect Jim. Barely. Instead, he studies his captain to learn his thought processes. Befriends him to learn his secrets.
And Spock does learn.
He learns that he can know Jim without taking him apart first. Without taking him.
There is no question as to whether Spock will take Jim. That was a foregone conclusion from the moment Spock released his stranglehold on Jim's throat. Possibly before. But he knows that Jim is not ready to learn who - what - Spock really is. Nor what Spock desires of Jim.
Tempting flashes of what he will one day possess accost Spock every second he is on the Enterprise with Jim. It is a sweet torture. Still, it is nothing in comparison to the exquisite agony that comprises the hours Spock spends alone with Jim in Jim's quarters over a chessboard. So close to what should be his. What will be his.
But he maintains restraint because Jim is not to be used as a momentary indulgence. Jim must be skillfully maneuvered into unconditional surrender.
The ultimate chess game.
It will take time. He can wait, though. He's waited centuries.
end
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Title: Longing
***
Spock often wonders if his other self warned Jim in that cave on Delta Vega. If Jim knows what is coming. Knows what Spock wants with him.
He watches Jim. Studies him. It is the most efficient way he has discovered to unravel Jim at present. To learn every weakness that can be exploited in the future.
He is fortunate to have an observational breakthrough early into their 5 year mission. Jim is split in two by a transporter malfunction.
Jim’s logical side is so indecisive. So easily controllable, if Spock were so inclined. But he is not. He does not want Jim handed to him so easily. Part of what draws Spock to Jim is his independence, and Spock looks forward to bending and binding that independence until Jim can no longer think of the two of them as separate entities.
The other half of Jim - the impulsive, animal side - is what gives Spock the most significant insight. He's afraid. Despite how courageous Jim appears, deep down, he is terrified. Spock can use that to his advantage, when the time comes.
The incident also provides Spock with a self-realization: if he had been involved in the transporter malfunction, he would have been split into logical Spock and hungry Sylar. He is certain of this.
He is also certain that before his two halves could be reunited, Sylar would have taken Jim. Taken him as Spock longs to.
In the quiet of his quarters, Spock hears a growling voice in the corner of his mind. It rages that it was not given this opportunity. Rants of how long it is taking to claim Jim. Whispers of plans for when Jim is finally consumed.
It is a low, seductive voice that only answers to the name of Sylar.
end
Continued in Rapacious
Anyway, this Hunger verse (where Spock is really, secretly Sylar) is consuming my brain. Here's a couple more drabbles. And it looks like I'll keep writing scenes as long as I can keep finding synonyms for hunger/hungry. Eep.
*****
Title: Ravenous
Author: Never
Pairing: Kirk/Spock
Rating: PG-13?
Disclaimer: So not mine.
Warning: AU. Kinda dark.
Summary: More of Spock’s musings as he fights the urge to take Kirk.
Author’s Notes: More of the Hunger verse (where Spock is secretly Sylar!)
***
Meeting himself is an interesting experience. Moreover, the ease at which his other self behaves implies that eventually Spock will be able to arrest his hunger without relying on strict Vulcan teachings. Certainly a worthy goal.
However, at present, it is out of the question.
Spock is ravenous.
This isn't the general hunger for all power that he felt when he still called himself Sylar. No, this hunger is focused solely on Kirk. Jim.
However, he does not allow himself to succumb. He resists the urge to dissect Jim. Barely. Instead, he studies his captain to learn his thought processes. Befriends him to learn his secrets.
And Spock does learn.
He learns that he can know Jim without taking him apart first. Without taking him.
There is no question as to whether Spock will take Jim. That was a foregone conclusion from the moment Spock released his stranglehold on Jim's throat. Possibly before. But he knows that Jim is not ready to learn who - what - Spock really is. Nor what Spock desires of Jim.
Tempting flashes of what he will one day possess accost Spock every second he is on the Enterprise with Jim. It is a sweet torture. Still, it is nothing in comparison to the exquisite agony that comprises the hours Spock spends alone with Jim in Jim's quarters over a chessboard. So close to what should be his. What will be his.
But he maintains restraint because Jim is not to be used as a momentary indulgence. Jim must be skillfully maneuvered into unconditional surrender.
The ultimate chess game.
It will take time. He can wait, though. He's waited centuries.
end
*****
Title: Longing
***
Spock often wonders if his other self warned Jim in that cave on Delta Vega. If Jim knows what is coming. Knows what Spock wants with him.
He watches Jim. Studies him. It is the most efficient way he has discovered to unravel Jim at present. To learn every weakness that can be exploited in the future.
He is fortunate to have an observational breakthrough early into their 5 year mission. Jim is split in two by a transporter malfunction.
Jim’s logical side is so indecisive. So easily controllable, if Spock were so inclined. But he is not. He does not want Jim handed to him so easily. Part of what draws Spock to Jim is his independence, and Spock looks forward to bending and binding that independence until Jim can no longer think of the two of them as separate entities.
The other half of Jim - the impulsive, animal side - is what gives Spock the most significant insight. He's afraid. Despite how courageous Jim appears, deep down, he is terrified. Spock can use that to his advantage, when the time comes.
The incident also provides Spock with a self-realization: if he had been involved in the transporter malfunction, he would have been split into logical Spock and hungry Sylar. He is certain of this.
He is also certain that before his two halves could be reunited, Sylar would have taken Jim. Taken him as Spock longs to.
In the quiet of his quarters, Spock hears a growling voice in the corner of his mind. It rages that it was not given this opportunity. Rants of how long it is taking to claim Jim. Whispers of plans for when Jim is finally consumed.
It is a low, seductive voice that only answers to the name of Sylar.
end
Continued in Rapacious