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[never_very_good]

Been more than a month since my brother left. Didn't expect him to come back-- couldn't tell you why, sometimes people do-- but a month's pretty much when people give up hope around here. Seems that way, anyway. Took Eden a month to come back, I spent most of it trashed. Didn't get drunk this time. Broke everything instead... I haven't been

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[fatespoken]

Hey.

private

[never_very_good]

This fuckin' place.

You know what I got at home?  Less than a minute, maybe.  Borrowed fucking time.

private

[fatespoken]

Don't think about it. Don't waste your time here worrying about how little you've got left back home. Don't waste your time worrying about your brother--

You're here now, and that's all that matters, Frankie.

private

[never_very_good]

Sure, all that shit. Live for the moment. Fine.

Doesn't make losing people easier.

private

[fatespoken]

There's truth behind the platitude.

You spend too much time thinking about who or what you've lost, three years later, you'll realize that you've gotten nowhere. You've wasted what time you have left.

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[never_very_good]

How far can you get, on borrowed time, in a place you can't leave?

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[fatespoken]

Time is time. There's no such thing as 'borrowed time,' it's just an idea.

private

[never_very_good]

You still sick, Amory?

private

[fatespoken]

No miracles or deity trades yet.

What point are you trying to make?

private

[never_very_good]

You gonna tell me it doesn't scare the shit out of you? Watching the clock run.

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[fatespoken]

Disgusts me more thinking about all the time I've wasted watching that clock run.

private

[never_very_good]

Yeah?

Good for you.

private

[fatespoken]

Whatever.

private

[never_very_good]

I got outta the habit of being afraid to die.

private

[fatespoken]

But it's obviously still on your mind.

[ There's a moment of silence. ]

Where do you think you'll go?

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[never_very_good]

Nowhere.

I dunno.

I don't believe in much, you know?