I Hate Me.

[never_regret_me]

Ive been so depressed latley.

*Sigh*

Dont know why.
Cant figure things out in my head anymore. Its like at first im okay and im happy and laughing but the next minute i want to run into a corner and cry and just let it all out.

But im so afraid to explain why im so sad all the time.
Why i cant just let things go.

Why cant i be me again??

I want to able to trust everyone again.
be able to trust what people say to me and that they care.
I wanna have my friends back.

I want my old life back.
When me and timothy were happy and had no care in the world.
Where i wasnt terrified of losing everything ive worked so hard for in him.
*Sigh*

but thats a whole other story....

Moving onto my next complaint.

Sometimes i really hate myspace.
I get such stupid messages from people.
They piss me off.
Always trying to interfere with me and timothy.

Im not getting into it.
I really just hate the whole myspace thing now.

Whatever.

I have a doctors appt. tommrow.
At like 830.
Which means i ont get any sleep
Cuz i work tonite from 10-2 and then i dont get home till like 230-3.
But i have to leave here at 7 to get there early.

Ergh.
Why me.