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this morning i woke up really early to go to leighann's memorial service. it was so beautiful there and so peaceful but i couldnt stop crying. i saw a lot of people there that i havnt gotten to talk to in a really long time. her uncle came up and read something that he wrote and he was crying so hard and thats when everyone started crying... i had to leave right after that though. god bless her and her family. i cant imagine being as young as her brother and sister and trying to understand everything that has happened and still being able to function.
everytime time i see a vw bug i cant help but stare at it and examine everything about it and i keep trying to picture exactly what happened.bugs used to be so whimsical feeling and happy, but i know i wont ever be able to think that about them again.
the pastor or whoever he was kept talking about the hope we should have and everytime he would say that(which was a lot) it would make me start crying again, but its so true. this seems so weird but im not sad or angry that she died, i almost feel relieved for her... what bothers me is not that she isnt here anymore, because i know she is somewhere thats much better than here, but it bothers me that her family and close friends dont have her around anymore.
everytime time i see a vw bug i cant help but stare at it and examine everything about it and i keep trying to picture exactly what happened.bugs used to be so whimsical feeling and happy, but i know i wont ever be able to think that about them again.
the pastor or whoever he was kept talking about the hope we should have and everytime he would say that(which was a lot) it would make me start crying again, but its so true. this seems so weird but im not sad or angry that she died, i almost feel relieved for her... what bothers me is not that she isnt here anymore, because i know she is somewhere thats much better than here, but it bothers me that her family and close friends dont have her around anymore.