It's been a long time.
It's been a long time since i've done this.. since kenny passed away. and we still don't know what happend. I still miss you kenny, i think about you everyday still.. don't think that i don't.
Alright. FUCK SUMMER OOOH SIX. It fuckin blows. Tech fest was sweet tho, even tho i don't really remember it. Me and corey goers started goin out, and we were perfect for a while. Then he thought that i was cheatin on him. when i fuckin wasn't, so that ended pracicly before it even started. Me and tom became really good friends, i love him. he's like a big brother to me, since mine is never around. im trying to remember what all has happend in the past like.. 2 months. which is alot. um.... yeah i turned 16, but i didn't have much of a day, it kinda sucked. I hung out with whitman the day before or something like that, got some xanax, then went out to dinner with tom, momma, and my dad aparently, i don't really remember.
me scott and brandon are the tri-pod, we own your face, enough said.
we all went out to rachels one night n me and rachel and other brandon got drunk. n had some fun. scott and brandon left then we went swimming n shit, and some shit i can't put on here because of authorities. lol then.... rachel thinks that i took some of her rings... im like wtf? and she STILL thinks that i have them. which is fuckin bullshit because i <33 rachel.. why the FUCK would i take anything from her?
Rest in peace- Gramma rose. And Boner. Yeah.. boner went too.. and no one fuckin' told me about it. what the fuck ever. I still have love for the kid. he was in my 2nd hour last year and i hung out with him a few times when i was going out with corey.
Then ONE day, outa the blue, i started talkin to brian.. joels brother. n he came and got me. n i got slaughtered! and it was the shit! because he is the man! And, I have alot of feelings for him, like more than i should. because i kinda feel like a whore because i went out with his brother, but whatever, brian is alot better than joel, and not just sexual wise, he's alot smarter than joel, all around. and i actually came to the conclusion that i love him, then i hadda go and fuck that shit up, and i can't go back and fix it, which fucked up alot of shit. and i kinda feel bad cause i kno it hurt him...i still don't kno why i just didn't tell him the truth.. i didn't want him to be mad at me, but i guess i shoulda just let it out when i had the chance, instead of having him find out the way he did.. but whatever.. im tryin to mend things.
I think my gramma's funeral was the hardest one i've ever hadda go through, just to see my mom like that, when we moved into the chaple, i thought we both we going to colasp.
then the day after, my brother almost gets killed.. which is fucking OUTSTANDING.... not.
I love my brother, with all my heart, i hope nother ever happends like that again, but why can't he just be a brother to me? he wouldn't even look me in the eyes at the funeral, and after his accident, it's been about a week, i've seen him like.. once. and he promised me that he'd be home more. and where is he? At aurora's house.. I'll admit, I love aurora still.. with all my heart. but sometimes i just like to see my brother without her. he promised me he'd always be there for me. and now that he's not there, i feel like it's my fault, and that i coulda changed something to make it better. but.. whatever.
kaitlin is my new obsession. she is amazing. =)
but, i don't know what else to add... i'll update more often i promise.
Alright. FUCK SUMMER OOOH SIX. It fuckin blows. Tech fest was sweet tho, even tho i don't really remember it. Me and corey goers started goin out, and we were perfect for a while. Then he thought that i was cheatin on him. when i fuckin wasn't, so that ended pracicly before it even started. Me and tom became really good friends, i love him. he's like a big brother to me, since mine is never around. im trying to remember what all has happend in the past like.. 2 months. which is alot. um.... yeah i turned 16, but i didn't have much of a day, it kinda sucked. I hung out with whitman the day before or something like that, got some xanax, then went out to dinner with tom, momma, and my dad aparently, i don't really remember.
me scott and brandon are the tri-pod, we own your face, enough said.
we all went out to rachels one night n me and rachel and other brandon got drunk. n had some fun. scott and brandon left then we went swimming n shit, and some shit i can't put on here because of authorities. lol then.... rachel thinks that i took some of her rings... im like wtf? and she STILL thinks that i have them. which is fuckin bullshit because i <33 rachel.. why the FUCK would i take anything from her?
Rest in peace- Gramma rose. And Boner. Yeah.. boner went too.. and no one fuckin' told me about it. what the fuck ever. I still have love for the kid. he was in my 2nd hour last year and i hung out with him a few times when i was going out with corey.
Then ONE day, outa the blue, i started talkin to brian.. joels brother. n he came and got me. n i got slaughtered! and it was the shit! because he is the man! And, I have alot of feelings for him, like more than i should. because i kinda feel like a whore because i went out with his brother, but whatever, brian is alot better than joel, and not just sexual wise, he's alot smarter than joel, all around. and i actually came to the conclusion that i love him, then i hadda go and fuck that shit up, and i can't go back and fix it, which fucked up alot of shit. and i kinda feel bad cause i kno it hurt him...i still don't kno why i just didn't tell him the truth.. i didn't want him to be mad at me, but i guess i shoulda just let it out when i had the chance, instead of having him find out the way he did.. but whatever.. im tryin to mend things.
I think my gramma's funeral was the hardest one i've ever hadda go through, just to see my mom like that, when we moved into the chaple, i thought we both we going to colasp.
then the day after, my brother almost gets killed.. which is fucking OUTSTANDING.... not.
I love my brother, with all my heart, i hope nother ever happends like that again, but why can't he just be a brother to me? he wouldn't even look me in the eyes at the funeral, and after his accident, it's been about a week, i've seen him like.. once. and he promised me that he'd be home more. and where is he? At aurora's house.. I'll admit, I love aurora still.. with all my heart. but sometimes i just like to see my brother without her. he promised me he'd always be there for me. and now that he's not there, i feel like it's my fault, and that i coulda changed something to make it better. but.. whatever.
kaitlin is my new obsession. she is amazing. =)
but, i don't know what else to add... i'll update more often i promise.