The point of no return.

Jul 17, 2007 16:00

It's funny sometimes what you see when you look back down the path of your life. To see who you've ended up with, where you used to be living and where you are now, dramatic things that you used to think were so important - now they're in perspective. It's like some kind of sick irony to know that a lot of things that you look back and see - were things your parents warned you about and you thought to yourself, "what do parents know? it's been so long since they were kids." A lot of things have turned out that way and I'm still waiting for my parents to say, "I told you so."

They try their best to prepare you for life and let you know a lot of universal truths that are out there, but you never want the advice. You always think that they're incorrect because they grew up at a different time and that surely by now that 'universal truth' must have been changed. But, no. It hasn't. Some things won't ever be different from era to era and it's only after we've been through them do we see all along that the 'experienced ones' were right. Kids always think they know the answers and that they will be the exception to the rule. And 98% of the time, it's not the case. We fall into the same traps as everyone before us, we go through a lot of the same growing pains as the other kids that walked the halls in school before us and yet we want to be defiant and say, "no. that's not going to be me." Yet, in the end it is.

I can see now where I thought my world would fall apart if I couldn't hang out with my high school bf that one time - but it didn't. I didn't drop dead on the spot from agony. My world continued and now, I couldn't tell you where that boy even is. I used to be unnerved by other students at school, always doubting my own confidence - and now I laugh at how concerned I was at so many other people's opinions. Things will always get to you from time to time, no matter how old you get. But it's the thought process that goes with it now, the maturity that is there to see the situation in a different way, how to handle your emotions... how to be an adult.

For some it takes longer than others, but it will eventually happen. The growing old, the innate sense of responsibility and planning for the future. It's only now, knowing that in a few months I will be 25 years old that I see how my parents were right in their knowledge and advice during situations that I thought they didn't understand. But they did, they fulling understood it because some things never change even over time. 25 years old might not be the most significant turning point in one's life, but it does make you look back over what you have accomplished and what you look to accomplish in the future. As of now, I am at a serious age where people look to me now for advice, where in a few years I will be 30 and there is no going back. I can no longer play the "college kid" card. I am past the point of no return and it is exciting. I will be a quarter of a century old and have accomplished a lot but have so much more to do.

As odd as it sounds, I have been looking forward to being an adult since I was a little kid. I enjoyed my time as a kid, but it wasn't always an easy life. I got picked on a lot in school, didn't have many friends. I felt awkward and out of place and felt like my time would come later. And it has, I grew up - didn't look as awkward as I had before and have accomplished a lot in the short time I have been on this earth.

I'm looking forward to the next 25 years and I hope they have even more fun than the 25 years I already had and that I get to accomplish even more. I have a long list of places I'd like to go and things I'd like to do before I'm 30, 40 or 50... so I guess I better get started on it. I am not a fan of Forest Gump - and some how my Mom likes it, but one quote in that movie does ring true... "Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're going to get." I'm excited to see what life throws at me next.
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