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well.
moday 2 hr delay
tuesday kelli ann ryan made my day
wednesday snow day thank god. saw my first infomercial ever.
thursday 2 hour delay. josh left. :-( lol. talked with katie. skipped the OC cos im a dumbass.
i did alot of thinking again yesterday. and surprisingly, mr howland kinda helped me out. and he didnt even do it on purpose. i was thinking about that story- the balek scales. And the theme. something about how the victims of opression arent likely to fight against it, and theyre just more depressed when they know theyre being opressed. Kathy has alot to do witih that set of thinking. and i jsut kinda blew up about it. had an awesome heart to heart with mom. even a bit of one with dad, and it really felt good. i really love them, guys. and dad being dad starts quoting his midlife crisis at me.
"no more crying wipe them tears
Daddy`s here, no more nightmares
we gonna pull together through it...
...don`t fuck with that"
way to be dad. love you for it man.
so then today i stayed home. didnt feel so well. woke up at 840 cos my phone rang with some fricken no-english person on the other end, and i couldnt go back to sleep. zach stayed home too- he has a 101 temp. poor kid. so i read the book that ive been meaning to read- the 20th wife. WICKED good i cried twice haha and i neeed to get the sequal or h/e you spell it. my back is really bothering me and i dont know why.. whatever. practice tomorrow from 8-12, then dress shopping and winerball if i feel like going. then sunday off to katies for science and then to kelly judges for spanish.
i just redid my AIM profile and i <3 it but its not how i want it cos its too big, damn it. lol sooo yeah. okay taking this survery from allie and then ill ttygl. remember to comment, goshh.
HAVE YOU EVER
01. Kissed your cousin: if cheeks count then yees
02. Ran away: haha yes
03. Pictured your crush naked: nopeee calm the hormones biatch
04. Skipped school: not without my mom knowing
05. Broken someone's heart:
06. Been in love: yees
07. Cried when someone died: yees
08. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: absolutely not. haha slash YES
10. Done something embarrassing: duhh :-P. lets not forget who i am, obviously :)
11. Done a drug: no
12. Cried in school: yes
PREFERENCES
13. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi.
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite
15. Girls or Guys: difficult question. for friends i prefer guys in some situations, girls in others. and then for more than friends, just guys please
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: depends on his jaw line and how he dresses lol
18. Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes do it better
19. Bitchy or Slutty: slutty. i hate when people are bitchy
20. Tall or Short: tall
21. Pants or Shorts: pants
22. Night or Day: night
23. What do you notice first: eyes then height
24. Last person you slow danced with: ?
25. Worst Question To Ask: omg theres tons.
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: last night. lol what a dirty kid
27. Stepped outside: ahh like 10 minutes ago cos i was grumpy so mom made me take a walk. no lie.
28. Had Sex: before my reincarnation :-P
29. Romantic memory: *smiles*
RANDOMS
30. your good luck charm: uhhhh. nada
31. Person You Hate Most: at the moment? my mother. at all? ohhh shes in my english and geom classes. and allison knows who it is :-P lol
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: ummm idk
33. On your desk: haha who knows? lots of jewelry, the ouija board, a planner thingie, a light.. idk
34. Picture on your desktop: hah this great male model that lives in nh. haha jk babe
FAVORITES
35. Color: crimsonnn :-P
36. Movie: White Noise was good but i liked the last samurai too..
37. Artist: dunno
38. Cars: audi tt. most definitely.
39. Ice Cream: peanut butter cup. or cake batter w/ butterfinger. ahh :)
40. Season: SUMMER!
41. Breakfast Food: cinnamon Life :-D
WHO
42. Makes you laugh the most: most of the people i hang out with are my friends cos they make me laugh. one of the first qualities i look for in a person. i think kelli ann was the ast person that made me laugh reaaaly hard :) "scuse me miss can i help you? you seem to have a limp"
43. Makes you smile: same as above
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: mom. usually.
45. Has A Crush On You: couldnt tell you.
46. Do You Have A Crush on Someone?: absolutely
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: absolutely guys. absolutely.
DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: nope but when im expecting someone to call im consciously aware of if they have or havent called yet until they call.
50. Save AIM conversations: if i feel the need, yes
51. Save E-mails: absolutely
52. Forward secret E-mails: no?
53. Wish you were someone else: on and off yes
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no, as tough being a girl is, i wouldnt wanna be a guy
55. Wear cologne: perfume yes =P cologne no
56. Kiss: when i want to. and he wants to. not recently.
57. Cuddle: ahh yes i love it mucho
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: once in a while. when moms not home.
HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your best friend? noo
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: no
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: haha no
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?: absolutely not :)
63. Been rejected: well not officially. that sounds really bad but its cos i dont ask a guy out or something when i want him. im too old fashioned for that. i think the guy should always ask the girl- but if the girl is comfortable with it- way to go her!
64. Been in love?: yep
65. Been in lust?: no
66. Used someone?: no
67. Been used?: idk
68. Cheated on someone?: tricky question. i say no.
69. Been cheated on?: not that i know about
70. Been kissed?: yes
71. Done something you regret?: yes, everyones gonna do something they regret eventually. if you dont believe me then go have your head checked :-P.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: mi madre? no kidding i hugged my sister.
73. You talked to?: mom
74. You hugged?: molly
75. You instant messaged?: either katie or josh
76. You kissed?: nick
77. You yelled at?: mom, but i didnt really yell at HER just nvm lol
78. You thought about? my dad. lol that sounds weird but i was wondering when he was coming home tonight lol
79. Who text messaged you?: josh
80. Who broke your heart?: no comment
81. Who told you they loved you? my mother
DO YOU...
82. Color your hair? never
83. Have tattoos?: i cant wait. lol
84. Have piercings?: yes
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
86. Own a webcam?: yes
87. Own a thong?: yes
88. Ever get off the damn computer? yeppp
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: whaat. no i dont speak german or dutch, thanks
90. Habla espanol?: some
91. Quack?: friggin weirdo
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything?: haha lipstick when i was 5 :)
93. Smoke?: no
94. Schizophrenic?: no
95. Obsessive?: once in a while
96. Compulsive?: absolutely
97. Obsessive compulsive?: no
98. Panic?: once in a while
99. Anxiety?: omg yeah
100. Depressed?:
EDIT
hehe took this one from al too :)
I AM:tired. cranky.
I WANT:to sleeep.
I HAVE:cookie batter on my face right now. goshh
I WISH:that things would fix themselves
I HATE:when you run out of sugar in the middle of making cookies
I MISS:the girls
I FEAR: death, being forgotten and spiders
I HEAR: typing.
I SEARCH:for a new lj pic. for all the answers
I WONDER: if tomorrow will be a good day <-- good one al. im keeping it :)
I REGRET: uhhh
I LOVE: popcorn headaches and good books. 2 truths and a lie
I ACHE: esp. my head and heart
I AM NOT: happy withthe way things are going.
I DANCE: like no ones watching, chyyeahh right.
I SING: when im happy
I CRY: too much
I AM NOT ALWAYS: perfect. im sorry
I WRITE: not often enough anymore.
I NEED: to make things better
I SHOULD: clean up from making those cookies. in a larger sense, have someone knock some sense into me. hmm she would call that turning around the issue. i think too much about what she says, i think lately. goshh. nvm
depressing and i know it
EDIT again
took this from a journal on allies friends.
oo1. What's your name? Vikki
oo2. What are your parents' names? Carmen and Mat (yes, one t lol)
oo3. When were they married? almost 20 years ago on aug 23
oo4. Are they still together? yees
oo5. Any siblings? 3
oo6. Names? molly frank and zach
oo7. When is your birthday? 11-07
oo8. Do you live in an apartment, house or duplex? House
oo9. Have you ever moved? Yes
o1o. Where do you live now? sutton
m. u. s. i. c.
o11. What CD's are in your player right now? haha i was on a trip down memory lane earlier so bsb.
o12. What types of music do you listen to? mostly hiphop/r&b and pop
o13. What's your favorite song? mockingbird-eminem
o14. What radio stations do you listen to? 107.9, 94.5 on occasion 97.7, 106.3 and 92.3
o15. What CD do you want to buy as of now? i dont
o16. What's the last CD you bought? uhhh. kanye, i believe
o17. What was the last concert you went to? usher and kanye
o18. What do you think of kelly osborne? whatever
o19. What's your favorite musical? idkk.
o2o. Do you enjoy christian rock? omg i used to be IN LOVE with bbmak or bbmack or w/e
d. e. s. c. r. i. b. e.
o21. Your personality : abuh.
o22. Your room :: messy. intense colors when its done
o23. Your mom :: unconditional love
o24. Your dad :: incredible
o25. Your bed :: comfortable, pain in the ass when i wanna get up
o26. Your last dream :: dont really wanna talk about it.
o27. Your last conversation :: with my mom
o28. Your outfit right now :: fave jeans, brown hoodie, pink tank top
o29. Your morning routine :: uhh get up, blowdry my hair if itsn not dry yet. then straighten get dressed maybe eat brush my teeth and if im lucky makeup
o3o. What you see right now :: what do you think? goshh
-
f. a. v. o. r. i. t. e. s..
o51. Number? 17 and 16
o52. Food? i cant decide. right now, angel hair pasta. :)
o54. Class? abuh. i dont wanna talka bout school. maybe sci or eng.
o55. Month? JULY BIATCH cant wait ;)
o56. Soda pop? pepsi of any sort- not cherry though. is there a such thing?
o57. Store? for what, clothes or? i like alloy magazine :)
o58. Color? crimson
o59. Animal? uhh. im thinking a tinger. lol
o6o. Snack? popcorn
e. n. t. e. r. t. a. i. n. m. e. n. t.
o61. Favorite movie? white noise or the last samurai
o62. Favorite actor? ashton omg hes so hotttttttttt. lol or denzel
o63. Favorite actress? mm nicole kidman, i think
o64. Favorite TV show? OC
o65. Favorite disney movie? POCAHONTAS!! :-P or shrek 2. good memories
o66. Favorite cartoon? umm. charlie brown xmas?
o67. Favorite book? AHH i was waiting for this question. lol either "A Northern Light" or "The Twentieth Wife"
o68. Last show you saw? umm. the bball game on tv like half an hour ago
o69. Last movie you watched? idk.
o7o. Last movie you saw in the theatre? um. White Noise
t.h. i. s. o. r. t. h. a. t.
o71. AOL // AIM :: aim
o72. CD // Cassette :: CD
o73. DVD // VHS :: DVD
o74. New // Old :: New
o75. New age // Vintage :: depends on the objecttt
o76. Day // Night :: Night!!
o77. Jeans // Skirt :: jeans
o78. Summer // Winter :: Summer
o79. Britney // Christina :: Christina, def
o8o. Alcohol // Weed :: neither
l. o. v. e. l. i. f. e.
o81. Boyfriend / Girlfriend? No
o82. Longest REAL relationship? almost a year and ahalf
o83. Shortest relationship? not sure
o84. Farthest you've gone? - jeez
o85. First love? - what about it?
o86. Last person you dated? nick
o87. Last person you kissed? nick
o88. Last person you hugged? mom
o89. Age at first kiss? 13
o9o. Age at your last kiss? 15
r. i. g. h. t. n. o. w.
o91. What are you doing? nothing. eminem = God
o92. What are you listening to? mockingbird
o94. What are you thinking about? my dad
o95. What are you tasting? peanut butter cookie gone bad. haha not enough sugar
o96. What do you smell? air? lol
o97. What is black in the room you are in? the mouse? idk
o98. What time is it now? 9:21
o99. How long did this take you? 11 minutes
moday 2 hr delay
tuesday kelli ann ryan made my day
wednesday snow day thank god. saw my first infomercial ever.
thursday 2 hour delay. josh left. :-( lol. talked with katie. skipped the OC cos im a dumbass.
i did alot of thinking again yesterday. and surprisingly, mr howland kinda helped me out. and he didnt even do it on purpose. i was thinking about that story- the balek scales. And the theme. something about how the victims of opression arent likely to fight against it, and theyre just more depressed when they know theyre being opressed. Kathy has alot to do witih that set of thinking. and i jsut kinda blew up about it. had an awesome heart to heart with mom. even a bit of one with dad, and it really felt good. i really love them, guys. and dad being dad starts quoting his midlife crisis at me.
"no more crying wipe them tears
Daddy`s here, no more nightmares
we gonna pull together through it...
...don`t fuck with that"
way to be dad. love you for it man.
so then today i stayed home. didnt feel so well. woke up at 840 cos my phone rang with some fricken no-english person on the other end, and i couldnt go back to sleep. zach stayed home too- he has a 101 temp. poor kid. so i read the book that ive been meaning to read- the 20th wife. WICKED good i cried twice haha and i neeed to get the sequal or h/e you spell it. my back is really bothering me and i dont know why.. whatever. practice tomorrow from 8-12, then dress shopping and winerball if i feel like going. then sunday off to katies for science and then to kelly judges for spanish.
i just redid my AIM profile and i <3 it but its not how i want it cos its too big, damn it. lol sooo yeah. okay taking this survery from allie and then ill ttygl. remember to comment, goshh.
HAVE YOU EVER
01. Kissed your cousin: if cheeks count then yees
02. Ran away: haha yes
03. Pictured your crush naked: nopeee calm the hormones biatch
04. Skipped school: not without my mom knowing
05. Broken someone's heart:
06. Been in love: yees
07. Cried when someone died: yees
08. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: absolutely not. haha slash YES
10. Done something embarrassing: duhh :-P. lets not forget who i am, obviously :)
11. Done a drug: no
12. Cried in school: yes
PREFERENCES
13. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi.
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite
15. Girls or Guys: difficult question. for friends i prefer guys in some situations, girls in others. and then for more than friends, just guys please
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: depends on his jaw line and how he dresses lol
18. Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes do it better
19. Bitchy or Slutty: slutty. i hate when people are bitchy
20. Tall or Short: tall
21. Pants or Shorts: pants
22. Night or Day: night
23. What do you notice first: eyes then height
24. Last person you slow danced with: ?
25. Worst Question To Ask: omg theres tons.
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: last night. lol what a dirty kid
27. Stepped outside: ahh like 10 minutes ago cos i was grumpy so mom made me take a walk. no lie.
28. Had Sex: before my reincarnation :-P
29. Romantic memory: *smiles*
RANDOMS
30. your good luck charm: uhhhh. nada
31. Person You Hate Most: at the moment? my mother. at all? ohhh shes in my english and geom classes. and allison knows who it is :-P lol
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: ummm idk
33. On your desk: haha who knows? lots of jewelry, the ouija board, a planner thingie, a light.. idk
34. Picture on your desktop: hah this great male model that lives in nh. haha jk babe
FAVORITES
35. Color: crimsonnn :-P
36. Movie: White Noise was good but i liked the last samurai too..
37. Artist: dunno
38. Cars: audi tt. most definitely.
39. Ice Cream: peanut butter cup. or cake batter w/ butterfinger. ahh :)
40. Season: SUMMER!
41. Breakfast Food: cinnamon Life :-D
WHO
42. Makes you laugh the most: most of the people i hang out with are my friends cos they make me laugh. one of the first qualities i look for in a person. i think kelli ann was the ast person that made me laugh reaaaly hard :) "scuse me miss can i help you? you seem to have a limp"
43. Makes you smile: same as above
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: mom. usually.
45. Has A Crush On You: couldnt tell you.
46. Do You Have A Crush on Someone?: absolutely
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: absolutely guys. absolutely.
DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: nope but when im expecting someone to call im consciously aware of if they have or havent called yet until they call.
50. Save AIM conversations: if i feel the need, yes
51. Save E-mails: absolutely
52. Forward secret E-mails: no?
53. Wish you were someone else: on and off yes
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no, as tough being a girl is, i wouldnt wanna be a guy
55. Wear cologne: perfume yes =P cologne no
56. Kiss: when i want to. and he wants to. not recently.
57. Cuddle: ahh yes i love it mucho
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: once in a while. when moms not home.
HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your best friend? noo
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: no
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: haha no
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?: absolutely not :)
63. Been rejected: well not officially. that sounds really bad but its cos i dont ask a guy out or something when i want him. im too old fashioned for that. i think the guy should always ask the girl- but if the girl is comfortable with it- way to go her!
64. Been in love?: yep
65. Been in lust?: no
66. Used someone?: no
67. Been used?: idk
68. Cheated on someone?: tricky question. i say no.
69. Been cheated on?: not that i know about
70. Been kissed?: yes
71. Done something you regret?: yes, everyones gonna do something they regret eventually. if you dont believe me then go have your head checked :-P.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: mi madre? no kidding i hugged my sister.
73. You talked to?: mom
74. You hugged?: molly
75. You instant messaged?: either katie or josh
76. You kissed?: nick
77. You yelled at?: mom, but i didnt really yell at HER just nvm lol
78. You thought about? my dad. lol that sounds weird but i was wondering when he was coming home tonight lol
79. Who text messaged you?: josh
80. Who broke your heart?: no comment
81. Who told you they loved you? my mother
DO YOU...
82. Color your hair? never
83. Have tattoos?: i cant wait. lol
84. Have piercings?: yes
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
86. Own a webcam?: yes
87. Own a thong?: yes
88. Ever get off the damn computer? yeppp
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: whaat. no i dont speak german or dutch, thanks
90. Habla espanol?: some
91. Quack?: friggin weirdo
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything?: haha lipstick when i was 5 :)
93. Smoke?: no
94. Schizophrenic?: no
95. Obsessive?: once in a while
96. Compulsive?: absolutely
97. Obsessive compulsive?: no
98. Panic?: once in a while
99. Anxiety?: omg yeah
100. Depressed?:
EDIT
hehe took this one from al too :)
I AM:tired. cranky.
I WANT:to sleeep.
I HAVE:cookie batter on my face right now. goshh
I WISH:that things would fix themselves
I HATE:when you run out of sugar in the middle of making cookies
I MISS:the girls
I FEAR: death, being forgotten and spiders
I HEAR: typing.
I SEARCH:for a new lj pic. for all the answers
I WONDER: if tomorrow will be a good day <-- good one al. im keeping it :)
I REGRET: uhhh
I LOVE: popcorn headaches and good books. 2 truths and a lie
I ACHE: esp. my head and heart
I AM NOT: happy withthe way things are going.
I DANCE: like no ones watching, chyyeahh right.
I SING: when im happy
I CRY: too much
I AM NOT ALWAYS: perfect. im sorry
I WRITE: not often enough anymore.
I NEED: to make things better
I SHOULD: clean up from making those cookies. in a larger sense, have someone knock some sense into me. hmm she would call that turning around the issue. i think too much about what she says, i think lately. goshh. nvm
depressing and i know it
EDIT again
took this from a journal on allies friends.
oo1. What's your name? Vikki
oo2. What are your parents' names? Carmen and Mat (yes, one t lol)
oo3. When were they married? almost 20 years ago on aug 23
oo4. Are they still together? yees
oo5. Any siblings? 3
oo6. Names? molly frank and zach
oo7. When is your birthday? 11-07
oo8. Do you live in an apartment, house or duplex? House
oo9. Have you ever moved? Yes
o1o. Where do you live now? sutton
m. u. s. i. c.
o11. What CD's are in your player right now? haha i was on a trip down memory lane earlier so bsb.
o12. What types of music do you listen to? mostly hiphop/r&b and pop
o13. What's your favorite song? mockingbird-eminem
o14. What radio stations do you listen to? 107.9, 94.5 on occasion 97.7, 106.3 and 92.3
o15. What CD do you want to buy as of now? i dont
o16. What's the last CD you bought? uhhh. kanye, i believe
o17. What was the last concert you went to? usher and kanye
o18. What do you think of kelly osborne? whatever
o19. What's your favorite musical? idkk.
o2o. Do you enjoy christian rock? omg i used to be IN LOVE with bbmak or bbmack or w/e
d. e. s. c. r. i. b. e.
o21. Your personality : abuh.
o22. Your room :: messy. intense colors when its done
o23. Your mom :: unconditional love
o24. Your dad :: incredible
o25. Your bed :: comfortable, pain in the ass when i wanna get up
o26. Your last dream :: dont really wanna talk about it.
o27. Your last conversation :: with my mom
o28. Your outfit right now :: fave jeans, brown hoodie, pink tank top
o29. Your morning routine :: uhh get up, blowdry my hair if itsn not dry yet. then straighten get dressed maybe eat brush my teeth and if im lucky makeup
o3o. What you see right now :: what do you think? goshh
-
f. a. v. o. r. i. t. e. s..
o51. Number? 17 and 16
o52. Food? i cant decide. right now, angel hair pasta. :)
o54. Class? abuh. i dont wanna talka bout school. maybe sci or eng.
o55. Month? JULY BIATCH cant wait ;)
o56. Soda pop? pepsi of any sort- not cherry though. is there a such thing?
o57. Store? for what, clothes or? i like alloy magazine :)
o58. Color? crimson
o59. Animal? uhh. im thinking a tinger. lol
o6o. Snack? popcorn
e. n. t. e. r. t. a. i. n. m. e. n. t.
o61. Favorite movie? white noise or the last samurai
o62. Favorite actor? ashton omg hes so hotttttttttt. lol or denzel
o63. Favorite actress? mm nicole kidman, i think
o64. Favorite TV show? OC
o65. Favorite disney movie? POCAHONTAS!! :-P or shrek 2. good memories
o66. Favorite cartoon? umm. charlie brown xmas?
o67. Favorite book? AHH i was waiting for this question. lol either "A Northern Light" or "The Twentieth Wife"
o68. Last show you saw? umm. the bball game on tv like half an hour ago
o69. Last movie you watched? idk.
o7o. Last movie you saw in the theatre? um. White Noise
t.h. i. s. o. r. t. h. a. t.
o71. AOL // AIM :: aim
o72. CD // Cassette :: CD
o73. DVD // VHS :: DVD
o74. New // Old :: New
o75. New age // Vintage :: depends on the objecttt
o76. Day // Night :: Night!!
o77. Jeans // Skirt :: jeans
o78. Summer // Winter :: Summer
o79. Britney // Christina :: Christina, def
o8o. Alcohol // Weed :: neither
l. o. v. e. l. i. f. e.
o81. Boyfriend / Girlfriend? No
o82. Longest REAL relationship? almost a year and ahalf
o83. Shortest relationship? not sure
o84. Farthest you've gone? - jeez
o85. First love? - what about it?
o86. Last person you dated? nick
o87. Last person you kissed? nick
o88. Last person you hugged? mom
o89. Age at first kiss? 13
o9o. Age at your last kiss? 15
r. i. g. h. t. n. o. w.
o91. What are you doing? nothing. eminem = God
o92. What are you listening to? mockingbird
o94. What are you thinking about? my dad
o95. What are you tasting? peanut butter cookie gone bad. haha not enough sugar
o96. What do you smell? air? lol
o97. What is black in the room you are in? the mouse? idk
o98. What time is it now? 9:21
o99. How long did this take you? 11 minutes