it aint like im askin you to give it up for free
yeah so everything is fine, got it taken care of. actually got it taken care of on monday. such a relief! but yeah so things are good. im havin a lot of fun with this boy. ive never connected this way with someone before. its really cool but scary too and exciting and addicting...ah i dunno how to explain. we went to the canal yesterday which wasnt all that great. walked in sewage and took pictures of graffiti and each others butts. then we came back to my house and played on the keyboard. oh yeah he plays music! its really cool. mostly guitar but he knows some piano too so its fun. then we both decided the night he stayed over at my house was pretty much the best night ever. it was weird/awesome to go to sleep and wake up in someones arms. jeez its so hard to keep my mind on stuff i have to do, and its so easy just to daydream about stuff like this. like i blew off my EIGHT TO TEN FREAKING PAGE REPORT to hang out with him yesterday, so now i am doing it tonight and it sucks. but it would have sucked either way i guess, but now its gonna be late. oh well.
yeah and shaunah and izzy are kinda being annoying lately. theyre both really good at leaving me out and its rude and it pissed me off. and izzys like freaking out because people know what happened (with the whole pregnant thing) and is like youre stupid why are you telling people that. and im not like advertising it but im not gonna hide it. i made a choice and i dont regret it and im not ashamed of it in any way. i think she just worries more about what people think about her than i do. i mean i care what people think too im not trying to make myself sound better or something, but...i dunno. we were brought up in VERY different households, and in mine my parents were like do what feels right, and thats gonna be different for everyone, so if what you decide isnt the same as what someone else decides, dont worry about it cuz neither is wrong. different things work for different people, and you should accept that what they believe is no less than what you believe, even if you dont personally agree with it. and in hers it was like do what the bible says because thats whats right. everyone should do what the bible says, and if it doesnt feel right for them then they just dont know the lord and need to live their lives better. i personally like my household way better, i think it makes much more sense, but she likes her way better. i dont hassle her about her way, because thats what works for her. and she shouldnt hassle me about mine, because thats what works for me. i dunno shes just a lot more closed minded than she thinks. which makes it even harder because she thinks shes open-minded. so theres like no way to make her see how she really is. or i havent figured one out yet. wow this is really long. just venting i guess. im done i promise.
for now. mua ha ha!
yeah and shaunah and izzy are kinda being annoying lately. theyre both really good at leaving me out and its rude and it pissed me off. and izzys like freaking out because people know what happened (with the whole pregnant thing) and is like youre stupid why are you telling people that. and im not like advertising it but im not gonna hide it. i made a choice and i dont regret it and im not ashamed of it in any way. i think she just worries more about what people think about her than i do. i mean i care what people think too im not trying to make myself sound better or something, but...i dunno. we were brought up in VERY different households, and in mine my parents were like do what feels right, and thats gonna be different for everyone, so if what you decide isnt the same as what someone else decides, dont worry about it cuz neither is wrong. different things work for different people, and you should accept that what they believe is no less than what you believe, even if you dont personally agree with it. and in hers it was like do what the bible says because thats whats right. everyone should do what the bible says, and if it doesnt feel right for them then they just dont know the lord and need to live their lives better. i personally like my household way better, i think it makes much more sense, but she likes her way better. i dont hassle her about her way, because thats what works for her. and she shouldnt hassle me about mine, because thats what works for me. i dunno shes just a lot more closed minded than she thinks. which makes it even harder because she thinks shes open-minded. so theres like no way to make her see how she really is. or i havent figured one out yet. wow this is really long. just venting i guess. im done i promise.
for now. mua ha ha!