eh
yeah so james and i broke up almost a week ago. he brought it up, but it was pretty mutual. i dont know why i was as upset as i was, i cried for like forever and didnt eat for 4 days. things are just kinda weird lately. i spent so much of my time with him, and now that were not together i dont know what to do with myself. i mean he occupied so much of my day to day life, and now that time is empty. its really strange to get used to. like every time my phone rings im like oh its james. or if a car door slams outside im like james is here. but i dont even know him anymore. ever since last thursday and the things that have happened (or that i found out about happening) show me hes so different than i thought he was. and it makes me feel really stupid and sad. this is why i dont like to go out with people, because they MESS ME UP! ok well i vented enough for tonight (plus THE OC is starting!). im sorry if you read that and found out that you didnt care and it was a waste of your time.
boys are mean. for once I'D like to break someones heart, you know??
boys are mean. for once I'D like to break someones heart, you know??