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HAAAAAI GUYS.
so I have tried to type out something happy and positive into this square HTML box and it is just not happening.
Honestly, I am okay right now but I don't feel great about going back to college (lol then again, no one I know does either).
Yesterday was fine. My brother came round and gave me a huge Easter egg which was sweet of him.
Then later we had dinner and it was uncomfortable, the way it is every time I spend time around David.
I cannot help that he makes me feel so fucking stupid, family. I may be an bitter over-sensitive bitch for it but we don't have much in common and I know he is not intentionally trying to distress me. Doesn't mean he doesn't frustrate me. I feel like such a cunt if I get into an argument with him though.
I find it sad that I'd rather spend time with his girlfriend Jenny who he has been with for what, about a month, rather than him. I was disappointed when she couldn't come, not that I showed this.
//long-term family issues which are my fault.
I missed an appointment with my counsellor by accident because I put it down on the wrong week. *facepalm* I am a numpty. I'm seeing her today though.
I'm surprised I coped so well without seeing her for two weeks. I suppose it's because I was busy doing other things or maybe I'm getting better at being on my own without that kind of support.
I'm taking it as a good sign either way.
May is going to be a psycho hose beast of a month. Exams, UGH, WHY LAWD. Theatre and sociology will be the hardest. Film will hopefully be a breeeeeze.
BUT I'M MEETING chuckaloonie IRL AND I WILL SHOWER HER WITH CUPCAKES AND CUDDLES AND IT WILL BE GLORIOUS.
I'm seeing TAKING BACK MOTHERFUCKING SUNDAY AS WELL, WHICH IS ALSO AWESOME AND OH GOD I MISS THEM.
PLUS PANIC!. I WILL INDULGE MYSELF IN STARING AT BRENDON IN A SUIT. BECAUSE YOU KNOW. SUITS. NNGH.