i can feel you breathingggg....
yahh this week has def had its ups and downs = / today was goin really good.. lunch was the best part of the day.. tryin to eat the crackers in less then a minute!! haha i love you girls! that was so funny.. and kaylee always makin me laugh<3 we sang to eachother on the phone.. it was cute<3..then kerri (my sister) called.. and just like that.. my day got bad
kerris gettin married to her fiance matt..(i think thats his name?) on october 9th.. of course im happy for her.. they've been waiting to plan their wedding for a long time now and he makes her happy.. i guess.. but i havent seen or talked to kerri in a year and a half and suddenly when shes planned her wedding date and wants me and lauren in her wedding she calls and wants me and lauren to get together with her so we can "catch" up on things.. catch up on what..? my fuckin life the past year and a half.. she should have been here for me like she used to be when we were little! ive missed havin my big sister around on the weekends..i looked up to her so much.. the only reason i ever started doin cheerleading was cause of her.. i wanted to be just like her.. then she graduated from high school and i realized that being like kerri would get me no where.. shes doesnt do anything with her life.. she tried college but shes to lazy to do anything so she dropped out.. last thing i heard she didnt have a job and her fiance is still a security guard.. they live in this gay ass apartment in brocton! the front door to go into the whole place doesnt lock and the door to her apartment doesnt lock and its wicked small.. wicked safe let me tell you.. matt doesnt want anything to do with my family cause hes scared of my dad.. cause he had a chance to work with my dad and actually make good money (im not sayin that we're rich but we ive been to florida 7 times.. aruba once.. and virginia beach twice..thats payin for 5 people so i guess my dad does okay with work).. but matt turned it down cause he wants to be a security guard...she fuckin expects me to forgive her for not bein here for me or anyone in my family for the past year and a half... all i ask is to have my big sister back..is that to much to ask?
whatever.. sorry she just doesnt know how much shes hurt me = (