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Last night was fun. We got third! Then Liverpool got first, and West Genny second. We beat CNS, which is a good thing that at least one band was below us. It could've been better, but my mom said that the improvement between Thursday and last night was huge. I saw Ryan, my Liverpool friend from camp. That was cool, since I haven't seen him since camp. Some random Liverpool dude was jumping up and down and screaming him. I asked him if he was okay, and he said he was just really happy. Alright. Then I went to give hima high five, and he hugged me. I'm beginning to discover that marching band is a big hugging sport. Anyways, congrats to Liverpool. CNS next weekend. And my bus is hilarious, so this should be good.
Today, I helped my mom pick up cans and bottles. I don't have to stay down there and count them (thank God) since I have too much homework.
Mmk. Completely different topic altogether. Last night, for some reason, reminded me how much I hate being alone. It sucks. I know a lot of people would rather have a boyfriend right now, and only been single for a little while, than be single for a long time. I'm just not used to it. It kills me not talking to him, but at the same time I know it would kill me even more if I did talk to him. It's just so hard. I don't think I necessarily miss being with him in particular, just so much as having someone who'll let me fall asleep on their shoulder, or that kind of stuff. Security stuff, ya know? And even through all this, I know I'll probably stick to that little promise I made myself. No dating this year. I'm just going to be single. I'm sure a lot of you think it's ridiculous, that I'll change my mind, but you have yet to find out how stubborn I am. And I have my reasons. Mostly, I just hate the crash and burn that normally comes for me after a breakup. It's a horrible feeling, and I don't want to go down in flames again. I think the little no dating thing is going to be more of a self security policy than a grudge against all guys. It's weird. I really don't know right now.