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Everyday i find myself looking for something, yet im not quite sure wut it is. I feel like something is missing but im not sure what to look for. I guess that past couple weeks have been ok. I havnt really done much besides work and hang out with some friends. Well and shaun too. Iv been hangin with him alot lately actually. Iv seen him like ever weekend. I guess ur prolly wonderin how that started, lol. Apparently he knew trey somehow and i went to trey's with amber one night and he came over to hang out. It was pretty awkward. I think we only spoke like 3 words to each other. I really didnt kno wut to say. Its weird cuz we can talk on the phone but when i saw him in person i like choked on my words. When he left i felt like cryin and again i dont kno y. But things have gotten better since then. I hung out with him on friday and we had some good conversations. Him and trey have been hangin out alot lately n accordin to trey "for a 'yo' boy he is sincere about u blake and he misses u like crazy. U can see it in his eyes" hmmmm. That gives me alot to think about but i told him lets jus c wut happens ya kno. Im gonna take this slow. Other than that things have been ok. I hate this time of year. The christmas decorations make me sick. I had to decorate red horse and weve been listenein to christmas music, so im gettin to much at one time. I think i might quite red horse actually. My boss is really pissin me off, i think hes cheatin me on my pay check. But i guess everyone hates their boss. Its money though and i need it. I duno been kinda blah these dayz. Not really carin about wut goes on jus kinda goin with the flow. I think tommy has a new girlfriend, and secertly im kinda jealous. Considerin the fact that he was "too wild" for a girlfriend but wutever. I cant alwayz have wut i want. And truly i still love shaun, but iv realized i need to keep my pride. Well i guess thats it. Not too much else has happened. My life really isnt that inetresting...