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Wow! It's been a while since I've written in this thingy. Well let me start at I give up on having a relationship with somebody. I kno im stupid cuz I'm only 14 but seriously i can never get close to anyone. Evrytime i open up to someone I end up getting hurt. Can't do it anymore. I still can't believe that Steven sat there on the phone and told me that the reason why he likes the Buck-Toothed Barbie doll more than me is beacuase shes "the skinny small little girl that he can hold". Wut the hell does that make me. Oooopppps!!! I forgot i'm a fucking cow!! All these shallow boys out there. Well that's ok cuz he'll be back and i kno he will. I have a way of gettin under ppls skin. But they realize it when it's too late. I'm talkin to Cameron again so i guess thats's a good thing right. He is a really sweet guy but im not sure if we are ever gonna go past friends. I mean hes really sweet. And a killer kisser. But the best part is he likes me for who i am. He has seen me in sweat pants lookin all rough and he still sits there and tell me im beauitful. Anyone who walks me home 4:30 in the morning in like below 0 weather. That's a good guy right there. Just wish we wouldn't have to put our freidnship on the line to be together. Ohh well. Guess that's the way life goes. I'm playin lacrosse now. I enjoy it i guess. We have lost the past two games we played. But that's ok i still get to beat chics up. Made the one eat mud the other day!!! YEA TUSCARORA UR COMMING TO OUR HOUSE NEXT TIME AND U BETTER BELIEVE UR GOIN DOWN!!!!!!!! Anywayz. I'm prolly goin to prom this year. I'm goin with Cameron. i have so much fun with that boy. We have like the deepest convos too. Just wish that Steven would leave me alone. hahaha. Yea well i guess im outt here for the night!!!! Later