Let your walls drop.
I've changed, a lot. I want to say it's good. But I'm not even sure of myself anymore. I'm doing things I don't normally do. But I'm actually having fun with my life. I'm happy. My boyfriend is great. I actually get to see my friends. But once in a while I wake up and have a terrible day. I want to sit alone and cry all day long. I don't even know why. Today is one of those days. I had a really bad week last week. And I'm afraid it's carrying into this week too. It's actually nice out today and I'm still in my weird mood. And then that's when I start second guessing myself. I am a bitch. I'm selfish. I always want attention, especially from my boyfriend. And when I don't get it, I get mad. Because I suck. I shouldn't get mad and I know that. But some affection from him would be nice sometimes. I'm not asking for diamond earrings or anything outrageous. Ughhh whatever. I suck.