updates
I guess you can say I decided to add some color in my journal. Well lets see where to begin, well i have mail that is your (sent here) but I think its junk mail, but have to ask you first before I can open it. Next could be the fact that Aris and I are fine we talked, but things have still changed a little, but then again I am changing. Just in the way I think about things because there is so much to do and not enought time ever. All this changing in life I just want to go backwards. This weekend dan and I are going home for an extended weekend for Karens wedding and to see my mom I am very excited, CAN NOT WAIT.
Now here is the good stuff, I got an apt with Katie and Tara its $133 each a month and utilites included. All we have to pay is cable. I am excited and u know where the apt is.......its at the red building on helen street. ITS MIKE RYANS old apt.....HAHAHAHAHA no really. Katie said she would take his room. We were going to take something in that building, but that one was the last down stairs one with large bedrooms. The other ones had smallrooms but a bigger kitchen. I rather have a bigger room especially in the summer. Other exciting news Chris and his girldfriend totally broke up and I dont care!!! Well I want him to be happy and I kept calling him Fri night because he stood me up and he thought it as something else. I LOVE DAN AND THAT IS THAT!!! next my friend Gretchen came out with katie, tara, and i and she totally made it her goal to talk to AMGRY HAT BOY and she totally danced with him and we meaning her, Me, and him did shots wtih him and then he bought us a beer, ANGRY HAT BOY!!! well only you would appreciate it. I have been dreaming of the Turtle, if I live to see it, school is slowly killing me. Ps. that night I wore girly sandles with a wedge heel like and never again. I do not know how our katie beeman does it, my feet hurt so much i walked home barefoot!!!
I talked to Sarah Flower yesterday, It was nice. I was angry and unsure if I wanted to,but I realized we are in the same places in our lifes and to talk to each other really helped. She is going to probably visit this weekend and I wont be here so she will be with cort the whole time, its okay. She has a boyfriend for a long time now and after this semester of grad school she is going to move in with him, so we were both talking about that girl syndrom. Lately thinking of my future I feel like I am that girl. I have to think of Dan, I love him and I do not want to have to be without him, well i can deal for a lil but not for years. anyway I feel like I have become very dependend on him lately and its scary, not becasue i dont trust him, its becasue I have not in such a long time let my guard down so much. I think for the first time ever I dont worry becasue i know he will love me, its wierd I always looked out for myself and dealt now i am a big ball of mush and when i have my period man i cry alot. But i acknowledge it and i am working on it. I PASSED MY TEST BY THE WAY!!!! I am going to be a teacher. If wierd I am so not ready. I am hoping that even though I have to go home to the city to proably get a job, if my mom can hold on to the house until then I can help her pay for it and then it can be our house.
I have to look at the positives of things and see not everything is that bad.
miss you love u
talk to u soon??
TOP MODEL TONIGHT.......
dancing queen
Now here is the good stuff, I got an apt with Katie and Tara its $133 each a month and utilites included. All we have to pay is cable. I am excited and u know where the apt is.......its at the red building on helen street. ITS MIKE RYANS old apt.....HAHAHAHAHA no really. Katie said she would take his room. We were going to take something in that building, but that one was the last down stairs one with large bedrooms. The other ones had smallrooms but a bigger kitchen. I rather have a bigger room especially in the summer. Other exciting news Chris and his girldfriend totally broke up and I dont care!!! Well I want him to be happy and I kept calling him Fri night because he stood me up and he thought it as something else. I LOVE DAN AND THAT IS THAT!!! next my friend Gretchen came out with katie, tara, and i and she totally made it her goal to talk to AMGRY HAT BOY and she totally danced with him and we meaning her, Me, and him did shots wtih him and then he bought us a beer, ANGRY HAT BOY!!! well only you would appreciate it. I have been dreaming of the Turtle, if I live to see it, school is slowly killing me. Ps. that night I wore girly sandles with a wedge heel like and never again. I do not know how our katie beeman does it, my feet hurt so much i walked home barefoot!!!
I talked to Sarah Flower yesterday, It was nice. I was angry and unsure if I wanted to,but I realized we are in the same places in our lifes and to talk to each other really helped. She is going to probably visit this weekend and I wont be here so she will be with cort the whole time, its okay. She has a boyfriend for a long time now and after this semester of grad school she is going to move in with him, so we were both talking about that girl syndrom. Lately thinking of my future I feel like I am that girl. I have to think of Dan, I love him and I do not want to have to be without him, well i can deal for a lil but not for years. anyway I feel like I have become very dependend on him lately and its scary, not becasue i dont trust him, its becasue I have not in such a long time let my guard down so much. I think for the first time ever I dont worry becasue i know he will love me, its wierd I always looked out for myself and dealt now i am a big ball of mush and when i have my period man i cry alot. But i acknowledge it and i am working on it. I PASSED MY TEST BY THE WAY!!!! I am going to be a teacher. If wierd I am so not ready. I am hoping that even though I have to go home to the city to proably get a job, if my mom can hold on to the house until then I can help her pay for it and then it can be our house.
I have to look at the positives of things and see not everything is that bad.
miss you love u
talk to u soon??
TOP MODEL TONIGHT.......
dancing queen