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I'm really worried right now.
I know I've talked about Logan in here before. He's one of my best friends. He's fifteen. I've known him since he was twelve or thirteen. He met me from my SweetS fansite and used to email me all kinds of SweetS icons that he made. We didn't talk a lot until about a year ago, and he's the one who I made STYLE with.
It didn't take me long to see in him a lot of me when I was his age. He was lonely, clinging onto a fandom to keep him going, homeschooled, and just... he wasn't headed in a good place. I took him under my wing. I helped him through things. It's been a rough past year for him, but I convinced hm to go back to public high school, and he's really been loving it. He's been doing really well and making honour roll, and I have never been prouder of someone in my life, I think.
He's been blossoming, and I don't see how anyone could find something bad about that.
There's something else that I've helped him with: he's gay. There's really not a question about it. It's one of those obvious things, and he's pretty sure. I told him to leave room for growth in that department, since he is young, but I believe him when he says he is.
His parents are really against it, though. His mom used to have us blocked from each other, for months. There was a time where he couldn't get online at all because his mother found out that he kissed a boy. One of my MSN accounts is still blocked from talking to him, but luckily I have two. His parents hate me, because I'm gay and I don't share their religious views. I know I'm one of the people he's most comfortable telling things to, and maybe they don't get what they're taking away from him, but damn.
His mother found out today that he had a boyfriend. As a result, he's probably not allowed online anymore. I'm sure his PSP has been taken away so he can't even message on Facebook anymore. He might not even be able to go to school still. They might take away his education because of this. He posted a Facebook status update before they kicked him off about how upset he was, and I just... don't get this.
I'm scared to come out to my parents. For the most part, I'm scared to come out for a lot of people. It's uncomfortable for me. I feel like everyone automatically expects you to prove it. My mother could probably accept it in her own way, kind of forced and not actually being okay with it, but not being like this.
I don't think they get it. I don't think they see how scary it is for a fifteen-year-old boy to be gay. He's comfortable with it because it's the way he is, but he definitely isn't comfortable with it otherwise. He's still learning to be confident. They can't possibly understand how nervous he would be to tell them. They know. They know, and he didn't back down, he didn't try to lie his way out of it, he told them the truth. Can't they see how brave that is, in its own way? Do they really think that they it's something he's doing for attention? For fun? I don't know what's going through their heads.
It scares me, that people just can't get it. That they can't understand. That they don't realise that they're causing more pain than just accepting that their son wants a boyfriend. Sure, it's uncomfortable, but this is your child.
I guess they don't see how much they're tearing apart a young boy. They're overlooking all the good in him. That's the part that makes me cry.
I know I've talked about Logan in here before. He's one of my best friends. He's fifteen. I've known him since he was twelve or thirteen. He met me from my SweetS fansite and used to email me all kinds of SweetS icons that he made. We didn't talk a lot until about a year ago, and he's the one who I made STYLE with.
It didn't take me long to see in him a lot of me when I was his age. He was lonely, clinging onto a fandom to keep him going, homeschooled, and just... he wasn't headed in a good place. I took him under my wing. I helped him through things. It's been a rough past year for him, but I convinced hm to go back to public high school, and he's really been loving it. He's been doing really well and making honour roll, and I have never been prouder of someone in my life, I think.
He's been blossoming, and I don't see how anyone could find something bad about that.
There's something else that I've helped him with: he's gay. There's really not a question about it. It's one of those obvious things, and he's pretty sure. I told him to leave room for growth in that department, since he is young, but I believe him when he says he is.
His parents are really against it, though. His mom used to have us blocked from each other, for months. There was a time where he couldn't get online at all because his mother found out that he kissed a boy. One of my MSN accounts is still blocked from talking to him, but luckily I have two. His parents hate me, because I'm gay and I don't share their religious views. I know I'm one of the people he's most comfortable telling things to, and maybe they don't get what they're taking away from him, but damn.
His mother found out today that he had a boyfriend. As a result, he's probably not allowed online anymore. I'm sure his PSP has been taken away so he can't even message on Facebook anymore. He might not even be able to go to school still. They might take away his education because of this. He posted a Facebook status update before they kicked him off about how upset he was, and I just... don't get this.
I'm scared to come out to my parents. For the most part, I'm scared to come out for a lot of people. It's uncomfortable for me. I feel like everyone automatically expects you to prove it. My mother could probably accept it in her own way, kind of forced and not actually being okay with it, but not being like this.
I don't think they get it. I don't think they see how scary it is for a fifteen-year-old boy to be gay. He's comfortable with it because it's the way he is, but he definitely isn't comfortable with it otherwise. He's still learning to be confident. They can't possibly understand how nervous he would be to tell them. They know. They know, and he didn't back down, he didn't try to lie his way out of it, he told them the truth. Can't they see how brave that is, in its own way? Do they really think that they it's something he's doing for attention? For fun? I don't know what's going through their heads.
It scares me, that people just can't get it. That they can't understand. That they don't realise that they're causing more pain than just accepting that their son wants a boyfriend. Sure, it's uncomfortable, but this is your child.
I guess they don't see how much they're tearing apart a young boy. They're overlooking all the good in him. That's the part that makes me cry.