lara
lara left yesterday. I miss her. I missed hanging out with her when we wouldn't but i knew she was there and now she is not here. I feel this weird sense of loss. i'm back to how i felt before I met her. she doesn't know it but she means the world to me,.,.,.she is my big sister.,.,.she's the only one whose given a damn and told me she understood and loved me for me. i know ill keep in touch and visit and all that shit but i miss her.,.,.people move on i suppose.,.,.she needs to be in florida. she needs to be with her father and mother and start a life of her own and she needs to go to medical school. i feel so selfish knowing she needs to do these things but having something in me screaming "but i need you lara more than words can explaine" maybe if she needed me i wouldn't feel so bad for needing her. i miss her.
and so i wander the streets alone
again
like always
like i was meant to
and so i wander the streets alone
again
like always
like i was meant to