doctors notes and band-aids
day one of fast is going good.
coudl hell have frozen over in my sleep and my mother be noticing me? I slipped up and cut saturday. it was just a mess of emotions. she grabbed at my hands today screaming how i must really hate her to do such things. that i only do this all to spite her and make her feel bad. if i have it so bad then why dont i just move the fuck out.,.,.
funny she should say that.
the hospital came up again today. and for the same reasons i dont have to go. but then he started talking about placement homes and filing shit for neglect. but the one reason he wouldnt is because i have no where to go and would end up in foster care and that would be pointless because well it just would.
i freeked out when he said this though. all the times i've wanted to leave but couldn't.,.,.and i still can't. its not that bad if this is all you've ever known. It would kill her. not to mention what i would have to endure from her. and what it would do to her and whats left of the family. i dont know.
coudl hell have frozen over in my sleep and my mother be noticing me? I slipped up and cut saturday. it was just a mess of emotions. she grabbed at my hands today screaming how i must really hate her to do such things. that i only do this all to spite her and make her feel bad. if i have it so bad then why dont i just move the fuck out.,.,.
funny she should say that.
the hospital came up again today. and for the same reasons i dont have to go. but then he started talking about placement homes and filing shit for neglect. but the one reason he wouldnt is because i have no where to go and would end up in foster care and that would be pointless because well it just would.
i freeked out when he said this though. all the times i've wanted to leave but couldn't.,.,.and i still can't. its not that bad if this is all you've ever known. It would kill her. not to mention what i would have to endure from her. and what it would do to her and whats left of the family. i dont know.