Lifes confusing sometimes, like this post
So life has been pretty shitty and confusing lately.
For starters, me and my girlfriend are on a "break" bc she is confused as to what she wants.
If there's one thing i have learned in relationships, it's that the nice, sweet guy usually ends up losing.
This is how i act in relationships and i rarely lose my cool which sets me up to be walked over and "one upped."
So no more of that shit. I'm not going to be a dick per se but not just the teddy bear i usually am.
Point being: 70% of women are attracted to assholes, you can dispute it all you want but you know deep down inside it's true.
Next on my list of things is where i am in my life.
Stripped down: i am 23 years old, graduated last year with a degree in Public Relations and a minor in advertising. I work at the same place i have worked most of my life: Macaroni Grille. Now you are probably asking yourself why I am not using my degree like i should be and i answer you with this. It is bc for the last year i have been working on a business plan to open up a music venue, mind you, this business plan has been changed so many times from its size to the alchohol served there (beer/ wine) and it takes a lot of hours that two people with full time jobs have little of. We are at the point where we are finally looking for places to get an idea of what rent is and i hope that within a year we will have something up to call our own. To work for myself is definetely going to be hard as shit but being independent and working for yourself is a lot more rewarding than being a slave to someone elses schedule.
In the meantime i am always stressed out about serving. The daily struggle in a slow season is pretty freaking hard especially when you mainly work lunches but i manage to stay above water and come out slightly on top.
I guess the reason i stay doing what i'm doing is that it is very flexible and is something i can do part time with the venue up and running but until then its a battle between knowing where i should be, and doing what i feel like.
I really should be using my degree to build up a resume (to fall back on) and everyday i come closer to seeing what's out there but i guess it is the freedom i have now that stops me.
It's a part of growing up that i am getting used to. I consider myself very young at heart. My music is very important to me as well as my free time and i worry everyday about that being put on the back burner. But one thing is for sure, my priorities need t be re-worked and i need to in a sense be doing what a 23 year old graduate should be doing.
I ask older people for advice all the time and most of the answers i get are (when i tell them what i'm doing) take your time, live life, don't let it pass you by and that only validates where i'm at now. I'm living life doing what i want and having fun before i take on this love/hate relationship with life.
If one thing is for sure, i don't want to be in a job/ career that i am annoyed with (which is where i see a lot of older folks).
Who knows?
For starters, me and my girlfriend are on a "break" bc she is confused as to what she wants.
If there's one thing i have learned in relationships, it's that the nice, sweet guy usually ends up losing.
This is how i act in relationships and i rarely lose my cool which sets me up to be walked over and "one upped."
So no more of that shit. I'm not going to be a dick per se but not just the teddy bear i usually am.
Point being: 70% of women are attracted to assholes, you can dispute it all you want but you know deep down inside it's true.
Next on my list of things is where i am in my life.
Stripped down: i am 23 years old, graduated last year with a degree in Public Relations and a minor in advertising. I work at the same place i have worked most of my life: Macaroni Grille. Now you are probably asking yourself why I am not using my degree like i should be and i answer you with this. It is bc for the last year i have been working on a business plan to open up a music venue, mind you, this business plan has been changed so many times from its size to the alchohol served there (beer/ wine) and it takes a lot of hours that two people with full time jobs have little of. We are at the point where we are finally looking for places to get an idea of what rent is and i hope that within a year we will have something up to call our own. To work for myself is definetely going to be hard as shit but being independent and working for yourself is a lot more rewarding than being a slave to someone elses schedule.
In the meantime i am always stressed out about serving. The daily struggle in a slow season is pretty freaking hard especially when you mainly work lunches but i manage to stay above water and come out slightly on top.
I guess the reason i stay doing what i'm doing is that it is very flexible and is something i can do part time with the venue up and running but until then its a battle between knowing where i should be, and doing what i feel like.
I really should be using my degree to build up a resume (to fall back on) and everyday i come closer to seeing what's out there but i guess it is the freedom i have now that stops me.
It's a part of growing up that i am getting used to. I consider myself very young at heart. My music is very important to me as well as my free time and i worry everyday about that being put on the back burner. But one thing is for sure, my priorities need t be re-worked and i need to in a sense be doing what a 23 year old graduate should be doing.
I ask older people for advice all the time and most of the answers i get are (when i tell them what i'm doing) take your time, live life, don't let it pass you by and that only validates where i'm at now. I'm living life doing what i want and having fun before i take on this love/hate relationship with life.
If one thing is for sure, i don't want to be in a job/ career that i am annoyed with (which is where i see a lot of older folks).
Who knows?