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Bwah. Today was A BAD FUCKING DAY! AHHH!!!! *listens to conjure one* this will make it better soon. But yeah. here's the story:
Today I missed the bus, but I didnt really, I just thought I did because I didn't know that there was construction being done on that street so I saw yellow lights (it was dark and I was REALLY tired) and so I'm like "FUCK! the bus. ahhh." so I walked back to my house and I was like "Dad, I missed the bus." and then I discovered cody wasnt going to school because he didnt do his stupid homework. and that Is SOOO not like him.. at all. He's always so perfect, and then he comes here and he's on the cpu all the time. So My dad's like "You just missed the bus to get back at me for cody not having to go to school!" and .. yeh. Uh RIGHT! cuz I LOVE getting yelled at. so on the way to school in my pertiful little car, We .. BAM! ran into the bus. not like crashed, but there it was right in front of us. so i'm like "Fuck. what the fuck was that thing that I saw?" and then I looked around and I was like "OMG! Stuid .. contruction.. aahhhh" so yeah.
then my dad started arguing with me and yelling at me and I'm like "Dad. I dont care, I really dont. I know you dont beleive me, and I know you never will in anything I do." So he said "you keep saying you dont care, and I KNOW that you'd rather be standing out on the street corner, saying 'come get me for twenty bucks' with your hand on your hip."
OH MY FUCKING GOD!! AAAHHHHHHH *cries* that hurt me so bad, i'm still pissed off. he fucking thinks I'd be a prostitute. He said "That's the only way you know how to live."
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS THAT!?!?!?! HES THE ONE THAT WAS AROUND WHORES!!! NOT ME!!! JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!! AAHHHHH!!!!
SOOO I started crying. stupid fuck. If I wanted to be called a prostitute again then I dont have to stay here to accomplish that shit. I am SO fucking pissed off right now. still. I just want to die. I need to leave. I want to be somewhere safe, somewhere where no one knows me and therefore cant make judgements. Not even false ones, though it happens anyway. My dad is such a jackass sometimes, I just wish he would die; put everyone out of their misery. Fucker. jesus fucking christ. I hate this.
Then he comes home and he pretends like nothing happened?!?!!!!!!
Hes like "Got a hug for me?" and I said "No." and I started doing something else and he came up and he's like "Well I'm gonna hug you anyway." and he came up and hugged me but I kinda just shoved him away. FUCK!!! if i knew how to make this font huge I would do it. because I'm so pissed. GRRRRR!!!!!
how can someone just pretned they didnt call their daughter a prostitute?? A REAL DAD!!! I can understand guy doing it to me, every fucking day, but jesus christ you evil fucks, some people just have sick minds. That's so wrong, and I swear from now on that I will Never be like that to my kids. and if my husband is then I'll boot him to the curb. I dont want my children knowing what I went through from experience.
This is fucking crap.
Today I missed the bus, but I didnt really, I just thought I did because I didn't know that there was construction being done on that street so I saw yellow lights (it was dark and I was REALLY tired) and so I'm like "FUCK! the bus. ahhh." so I walked back to my house and I was like "Dad, I missed the bus." and then I discovered cody wasnt going to school because he didnt do his stupid homework. and that Is SOOO not like him.. at all. He's always so perfect, and then he comes here and he's on the cpu all the time. So My dad's like "You just missed the bus to get back at me for cody not having to go to school!" and .. yeh. Uh RIGHT! cuz I LOVE getting yelled at. so on the way to school in my pertiful little car, We .. BAM! ran into the bus. not like crashed, but there it was right in front of us. so i'm like "Fuck. what the fuck was that thing that I saw?" and then I looked around and I was like "OMG! Stuid .. contruction.. aahhhh" so yeah.
then my dad started arguing with me and yelling at me and I'm like "Dad. I dont care, I really dont. I know you dont beleive me, and I know you never will in anything I do." So he said "you keep saying you dont care, and I KNOW that you'd rather be standing out on the street corner, saying 'come get me for twenty bucks' with your hand on your hip."
OH MY FUCKING GOD!! AAAHHHHHHH *cries* that hurt me so bad, i'm still pissed off. he fucking thinks I'd be a prostitute. He said "That's the only way you know how to live."
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS THAT!?!?!?! HES THE ONE THAT WAS AROUND WHORES!!! NOT ME!!! JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!! AAHHHHH!!!!
SOOO I started crying. stupid fuck. If I wanted to be called a prostitute again then I dont have to stay here to accomplish that shit. I am SO fucking pissed off right now. still. I just want to die. I need to leave. I want to be somewhere safe, somewhere where no one knows me and therefore cant make judgements. Not even false ones, though it happens anyway. My dad is such a jackass sometimes, I just wish he would die; put everyone out of their misery. Fucker. jesus fucking christ. I hate this.
Then he comes home and he pretends like nothing happened?!?!!!!!!
Hes like "Got a hug for me?" and I said "No." and I started doing something else and he came up and he's like "Well I'm gonna hug you anyway." and he came up and hugged me but I kinda just shoved him away. FUCK!!! if i knew how to make this font huge I would do it. because I'm so pissed. GRRRRR!!!!!
how can someone just pretned they didnt call their daughter a prostitute?? A REAL DAD!!! I can understand guy doing it to me, every fucking day, but jesus christ you evil fucks, some people just have sick minds. That's so wrong, and I swear from now on that I will Never be like that to my kids. and if my husband is then I'll boot him to the curb. I dont want my children knowing what I went through from experience.
This is fucking crap.