I don't want to be your friend, I just want to be your lover.
Now that you found it, it's gone.
Now that you feel it, you don't.
...You've gone off the rails.
The Radiohead is sinking in. A lot of people consider Radiohead depressing and that's a pretty reasonable critique. Often a lot of it will get me feeling really low but I'm alright with that. Usually the ideas behind the songs aren't depressing. They're often sad, but never dwelling, never hopeless. But In Rainbows brought on a song that breaks those rules, because you really just want to die after listening to it. The lyrics above are from it, it's called Nude. Killer. Killer.
Anyway. I guess it might just be that there's a new Radiohead album out, but my head is all over the walls lately. Doing a lot of big dreaming, even then Nude tells me not to, haha. I guess my speech was a way of softening the ground for the people around me and myself, as well. Not feeling right around here. Same crazy feelings I had at the end of last year but unlike then, I know what I'd rather be doing. It is off the wall, it is pie in the sky, it is something every 5-year-old wants to be and every mid-life male is wishing they could have been. But I want it, and I feel like it can happen. I just need my guys.
I keep thinking about all of the good things that I've been granted with, all of the praise and awards and that. I feel inspired, I feel humble but confident, I feel like I can do something right now. I sit in this concrete room, and I lay here, and I eat here and I don't stop thinking about incredible things that not everyone gets to experience in their lives for whatever reason, things not everyone manages to achieve and dreams that not everyone can live, and I feel like now, right now, I am enabled to do those things. And I sit here, $15 000 later, wondering why I'm here and not there.
So if things keep up, if I can hold on to these feelings and friends and dreams, next year will be a sight to see. It's all on paper, it's all in head. If I don't ever try to do something incredible that I feel is right there in front of me, then I should just hand over my spot to the next guy on earth. But maybe it's just that there's a new Radiohead album out.
No matter what happens now, you shouldn't be afraid
Because-I-know-to-day-has-been-themost-per-fect-day-I've-ev-er-seen.
Now that you feel it, you don't.
...You've gone off the rails.
The Radiohead is sinking in. A lot of people consider Radiohead depressing and that's a pretty reasonable critique. Often a lot of it will get me feeling really low but I'm alright with that. Usually the ideas behind the songs aren't depressing. They're often sad, but never dwelling, never hopeless. But In Rainbows brought on a song that breaks those rules, because you really just want to die after listening to it. The lyrics above are from it, it's called Nude. Killer. Killer.
Anyway. I guess it might just be that there's a new Radiohead album out, but my head is all over the walls lately. Doing a lot of big dreaming, even then Nude tells me not to, haha. I guess my speech was a way of softening the ground for the people around me and myself, as well. Not feeling right around here. Same crazy feelings I had at the end of last year but unlike then, I know what I'd rather be doing. It is off the wall, it is pie in the sky, it is something every 5-year-old wants to be and every mid-life male is wishing they could have been. But I want it, and I feel like it can happen. I just need my guys.
I keep thinking about all of the good things that I've been granted with, all of the praise and awards and that. I feel inspired, I feel humble but confident, I feel like I can do something right now. I sit in this concrete room, and I lay here, and I eat here and I don't stop thinking about incredible things that not everyone gets to experience in their lives for whatever reason, things not everyone manages to achieve and dreams that not everyone can live, and I feel like now, right now, I am enabled to do those things. And I sit here, $15 000 later, wondering why I'm here and not there.
So if things keep up, if I can hold on to these feelings and friends and dreams, next year will be a sight to see. It's all on paper, it's all in head. If I don't ever try to do something incredible that I feel is right there in front of me, then I should just hand over my spot to the next guy on earth. But maybe it's just that there's a new Radiohead album out.
No matter what happens now, you shouldn't be afraid
Because-I-know-to-day-has-been-themost-per-fect-day-I've-ev-er-seen.