beautiful day

[neutralgood]

my beautiful days keep getting destroyed.
im done with that.
im not blaming because i cant articulate how i feel
im just done. its depressing in the romantic sense
but stuff is going on that everyone tells me should have
happened forever ago. i think its fucked up because
taking people out of your life, losing people, is wrong
for whatever reason. everyone else i talk to says differently.
i dont know. i find it funny that these days everyone talks about
how amazing my life is and how awesome i am as a person,
and that they are so glad to finally see me happy - i wonder
why they didnt say as much when i was terribly unhappy :)
but hey, at least something was said. puts stuff
into perspective. tragedy in my opinion, all of this.
im so excited because today
is going to be MY beautiful day.
no one is going to steal it.

i love you all, whether you believe it or not.
-moijr