Here is an update
So things are going better. Last week was a week of utter hell and depression. I can't say that i'm really back to my normal self, and honestly i don't know if i'll ever get there this semester. But i can be happy. Not happy go lucky maybe but I've shown myself that i can defeinitely be happy. I'm noticing that my biggest problem right now is shame, in that i am ashamed of myself quite often for how i do in my classes. This is particularly evident in German solely because it's a small class and the teacher is just really into it. He also gives a lot of homework which helps with the swamped feeling but whatever. I'm getting back into the groove of things and thats good.
Part of the reason i'm doing better is because the groove has changed a bit. I'm going to be a props person with a walk on role in an upcoming play here at miami instead of working in the shop for the rest of the semester. This is a huge load off as the shop really put a drain on me and my spirits, but now that i don't have to deal with it anymore, it's not a huge deal. The unfortunate part of this is that i won't be able to go to Erin's on presidents day weekend because we have rehearsal. All day. It sucks. She's coming to stay with me that weekend and i really hope i get to spend some time with her. That would just be super. Sleeping next to her is good, but interacting with her is just a tad bit better. :)
So i have to do a collage for my lighting design class for tomorrow. The point is to acquire and arrange images in such a way as to convey the emotion of love to the class. I've decided to go a bit away from the norm and do something kind of weird. I feel strange about it because i really feel that i'm putting myself out on a limb. We weren't given really specific directions so i'm worried that what i want to do won't be acceptable but i don't care. So...
What i'm going to do is bring my trash can to class, and dump the trash out on the floor. I will then place the can on top of the pile. Wearing a suit and my angel wings which i will be adorning with christmas lights, i will plug myself in and stand on top of the trash can holding a picture of Erin. It's a kind of love conquers all type of thing, but i really like it. I'm just worried about it. I hope it turns out ok.
HELIOS has been giving me a lot of shit here as of late. He's having a lot of problems with power consumption and i'm thinking a 400 watt power supply just isn't enough for him. My graphics card eats up the power and it's been causing a lot of crash problems over the past few days. I've rearranged the power distribution in there and hopefully it'll work now. It has been for a while, but who knows in the future.
And that's all i've really got right now.
I'm feeling better.
Part of the reason i'm doing better is because the groove has changed a bit. I'm going to be a props person with a walk on role in an upcoming play here at miami instead of working in the shop for the rest of the semester. This is a huge load off as the shop really put a drain on me and my spirits, but now that i don't have to deal with it anymore, it's not a huge deal. The unfortunate part of this is that i won't be able to go to Erin's on presidents day weekend because we have rehearsal. All day. It sucks. She's coming to stay with me that weekend and i really hope i get to spend some time with her. That would just be super. Sleeping next to her is good, but interacting with her is just a tad bit better. :)
So i have to do a collage for my lighting design class for tomorrow. The point is to acquire and arrange images in such a way as to convey the emotion of love to the class. I've decided to go a bit away from the norm and do something kind of weird. I feel strange about it because i really feel that i'm putting myself out on a limb. We weren't given really specific directions so i'm worried that what i want to do won't be acceptable but i don't care. So...
What i'm going to do is bring my trash can to class, and dump the trash out on the floor. I will then place the can on top of the pile. Wearing a suit and my angel wings which i will be adorning with christmas lights, i will plug myself in and stand on top of the trash can holding a picture of Erin. It's a kind of love conquers all type of thing, but i really like it. I'm just worried about it. I hope it turns out ok.
HELIOS has been giving me a lot of shit here as of late. He's having a lot of problems with power consumption and i'm thinking a 400 watt power supply just isn't enough for him. My graphics card eats up the power and it's been causing a lot of crash problems over the past few days. I've rearranged the power distribution in there and hopefully it'll work now. It has been for a while, but who knows in the future.
And that's all i've really got right now.
I'm feeling better.