Random spot check
So work's been good to me. I really can't complain. My only real actual problem is the weight I put upon myself to be perfect and how I beat myself up inside if (when) I don't live up to that potential. I know it's unrealistic when I try so hard to reach something so impossible. However, I'm learning to be better about it with myself. When I think about it, I've really only been on my floor (F5W) since the 13th of November, and when I look back to my first day, I've really come a long way. I could barely handle one person when I started because I was so nervous, and now I'm handling three practically by myself, calling doctors, doing all sorts of IV-related tasks.. I think in a month and a half I may be ready to be off orientation, but who knows. I'm going to try to stay with my preceptor Nicole as long as I possibly can hang on because not only do I need her, but I like her as a person so having her around is great.
The drive is a bitch. It's an hour each way, unless there's no traffic, and then it's 45 minutes. Well, actually, that's with no traffic and speeding. Sometimes that latter one isn't such an awesome idea on 287 and 80, so I take awhile. So basically I get up at 4:30 in the morning and don't get home until around 8:45, which is a 16 hour day. Soon I'm going to be working three of them in a row. I will never do more than that. And breaks in the nursing world are scarce, I don't care what anyone says. They're pretty much impossible to take.
Things with Scott are great. I've finally met my match for sarcasm and wit, and he is also intolerant of idiots. I wouldn't have guessed that from the nice, considerate guy he is. Over Thanksgiving he met my family and friends, and I met his mom and her boyfriend that weekend as well. Everyone seems to like everyone else. It's all too good to be true - I'm just waiting for something to go wrong, because it always does go wrong for me it seems, so why should this work? One can hope! I'm just glad that that aspect of my life is going well because of my struggle with work. I don't think I would have made it in this job if not for Scott. I was just in such a low place at the end of September - my car was totaled, my job was screwed up, I couldn't get a job because I'd taken the NCLEX so late, I was lamenting the horrible Spring semester of this year... I just don't know how I would have done this.
I feel like a neglectful friend. I need to see Shawnna and Missy.. I got to hang out with Mer and Laura last week at least. We saw Borat. It was so funny I think I may have peed a little bit. That is all for now.
The drive is a bitch. It's an hour each way, unless there's no traffic, and then it's 45 minutes. Well, actually, that's with no traffic and speeding. Sometimes that latter one isn't such an awesome idea on 287 and 80, so I take awhile. So basically I get up at 4:30 in the morning and don't get home until around 8:45, which is a 16 hour day. Soon I'm going to be working three of them in a row. I will never do more than that. And breaks in the nursing world are scarce, I don't care what anyone says. They're pretty much impossible to take.
Things with Scott are great. I've finally met my match for sarcasm and wit, and he is also intolerant of idiots. I wouldn't have guessed that from the nice, considerate guy he is. Over Thanksgiving he met my family and friends, and I met his mom and her boyfriend that weekend as well. Everyone seems to like everyone else. It's all too good to be true - I'm just waiting for something to go wrong, because it always does go wrong for me it seems, so why should this work? One can hope! I'm just glad that that aspect of my life is going well because of my struggle with work. I don't think I would have made it in this job if not for Scott. I was just in such a low place at the end of September - my car was totaled, my job was screwed up, I couldn't get a job because I'd taken the NCLEX so late, I was lamenting the horrible Spring semester of this year... I just don't know how I would have done this.
I feel like a neglectful friend. I need to see Shawnna and Missy.. I got to hang out with Mer and Laura last week at least. We saw Borat. It was so funny I think I may have peed a little bit. That is all for now.