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[nettiebear]

I feel heart broken. Just for a little update, I've been talking with this guy online for a long time, and i know many of you are against the online dating thing...I am too. It was suggested by a friend that I visit a sight as a possibility to getting dates, and so thats what i tried. Most of the guys that tried to talk to me were idgits, ones that i couldn't stand, but after like the second day, one guy popped on and he was like a friend...so over the last two months we've talked pretrty much everyday whether online or on the phone. And it has been awesome. I was going to visit him sometime this summer. Thing is, is that he is so wishy washy. Like he flirts and stuff and acts like he wants a relationship, he's even called me sweetie, and i've called him honey, that sort of cutesy stuff. I have loved it because he seems like an ideal person that i'd like to date. Thing is now, i'm just so tired of never knowing whats going to happen, what he wants out of things, and when i try to ask its like awkward. So i don't know what to do. i need to start dating people, i just can't do this distance thing anymore. i don't mind not being engaged and all, i just want to date.

I know what i want out of life, its just full of so many disappointments right now. So as to how to pick myself up...i'm trying, but i don't know how :(