Setting this Straight

[nettie20001]

Okay, while I hate the fact that the person I'll be talking about in this entry will read this and most likely comment, I have to write this out so that people don't get the wrong idea, because someone left a comment on a recent entry of mine and I don't think understand what is going on. Okay, so let's start with this thing with Amanda and Emma

Comments

[nettie20001]

Okay, so here's this, I just wish that you would say who you were. I would have more respect for you if you could only because then I know that it's you being honest with me and not someone else. Of course I'm not going to get mad, because you are being honest, but I have to say a few things. Now, I'm not using the thing where I haven't showed myself completely to you guys as an excuse, it's just, there's something that makes me feel like none of you truly know me, and I'm not sure what it is? I mean, I get so mad, like right now I'm crying because I've tried so hard to do just that, completely open up and be Annette, but it's hard. I am so self-concsious, and I don't even know why I can't. I don't know what it is I'm holding back, it's just a feeling that is really strong. I knew I talked a lot about myself, but I thought I had stopped that, I'll try to stop, thanks so much. Then, dance. Yea, I just love it so much, and always have that when I got back into it, I was so excited I couldn't shut up! lol. I don't think I'm all that good, I just hear things from others that make me feel good about my dancing. And just because others have been dancing longer than me though, doesn't mean I'm not going to go out there and be the best I can be, ya know? If I can get into a company at Dance Fusion, that's what I'm going to do. I don't plan on getting up to Senior Company level, but maybe Junior Company, and if not, I'll try next year. But when I say I know I can do it, I'm not worried, it's because I'm driven and I know that sooner or later I'll be able to do the move or whatever it is, that's all. I have determination to do it, so I'm not worried. I know I'll be able to do the move or whatever, but I know it may not look good, just that I'll be able to do it, and I'm proud of myself, I'm not really super good at anything, then dance comes along and it's something I'm decent at. I hope that you can support me in at least this, the other stuff is excuses and all, this is something I love and really want your support on. I don't think I don't get stuff because I am too short, unless it came to certain sports, but I don't really play sports where you need height, so if you could explain that a little more, that'd be cool. um...If I am not welcome somewhere please let me know. Or maybe it's just I need to control what I say, not really where I'm welcome? I'm not really sure. When I'm in a group, I'll try and listen more and put my two cents in every once in a while. I guess I just feel like I have to impress people here, because at my old school everyone knew me and I couldn't completely change that. Here, I could, but I went too far. This means a lot to me, thank you so much. Just please let me know who you are. That would mean even more. I'm trying really hard, and I'll put in a little more effort as well, as much as possible.

I didn't write that....but

[nettie20001]

I have something to add. U really don't need to know who wrote that or who I am, because you will be mad at them and me. U say u wont, but deep down you will, because it is embarassing to be called out on personal flaws. So whoever the first person is....don't give yourself away.
I do like that you can see yourself including your flaws and stuff, but you need to realize this is your home now, and if you have not 'been yourself' in like 2 years...will you ever? If you expect a person to treat you a certan way, and you don't treat them that same way that is not a real friend. It is called the golden rule, and you should follow it.
Don't take that the wrong way, because I think you are a pretty great person. You just can't expect people NOT to judge you *beacuse they don't know you?* when you will not let ne 1 get to know you ne way.....so if Amanda judged you based on the person you present to Holt, and that is not who you are, then why do you care? Because based on what you said no one "knows" you x-cept ppl from "stearling heights"
P.S. YOU DON'T LIVE THERE NE MORE!!!
Be yourself and see how ppl feel. You may find you have more friends than you know.

[nettie20001]

Re: I didn't write that....but

[nettie20001]

I think that everyone who has written something in this in the past has done a very good job, no swear words just calm! Everyone is being nice and Respecting each other, i am impressed. Okay Annette you don't need to know who any of these people are and i think that but you not knowing then we can truly help you and try to understand you. You have great friends who are surronding you are someone has given them the chance to tell you what they think and yet still be as awesome of friend. Listen to these comments but don't worry about them, u still have friends that love you, we just all want to help. I am sure that moving was one of the most difficult things you have had to do, we are here to help you deal if you need us to be but, we want you to understand that you make us feel like holt is horribly below where you used to live. Don't overreacct about this comment, just listen and make sure that u have some awesome friends. Rachel Emma Kelly Danielle, Stephanie, Whitney,Jill Morgan Anna...you have tons! they should be helping you, let this be the opportunity, i'll tell you again to listen to this comment but, don't worry about who it is.

P.S. u have a life here now...we want to hear more about that

Re: I didn't write that....but

[nettie20001]

Thanks again for the comment, just you need to understand that not knowing will almost literally tear me apart. It is already beginning. Please, I have to know so I can with you face to face, because that's what really needs to be done. About Holt, actually, I'm beginning to realize that Holt is a lot better than Sterling Heights, other than the few best friends I have there, most of them were stuck up. I don't look down on Holt at all, it's just different, everything is. How we talk, what we talk about, the big sports, everything. This is really hard for me, and I'm trying to, believe me. I am. You all just have to back up and give me my space because I'm feeling suffocated. I know I have a life here now, but there's only a year and a half of experiences here, whereas in Sterling Heights I had about 10 years. I am still going to talk about it, or else I would barely ever talk, but I'll ease up a little bit on it.