onto the next . . .

[netter_maimai]

today i sign onto the liberty.

i feel so afraid.

i need to remember that new experiences do not erase previous ones.

i need to believe that i'll find joy and adventure and it will all be worth eventual sadness.

i need to remind myself that all of this is fleeting and a privilidge and a gift and to treat it as such.

i'm such a big bottle of emotion.

but only 2 weeks until the family comes to cruise with me. and that will be so very very good.