balance of happiness . . .
when i was not at camp during my high school summers, i was often living in port dover with jordi's family while doing theatre work. there is one conversation i remember most clearly with her dad as we drove home after a day at the theatre.
he threw out an idea. what if we are all allocated so many happy days and so many unhappy days and it's never a matter of always being happy or not happy, it's just that you simply have to have so many of each. i'm not certain that this is an idea he actually lives by or if it was just conversation. but it's a conversation that i remember.
and now, when i'm in the midst of such an extreme period of happiness, that conversation is coming back to me. if that theory were to hold true, one day i'm going to have to have a lot of days of unhappiness to balance out all this excessive joy.
that or i'm making up for time that seems so distant from me now i can't even recall it.
he threw out an idea. what if we are all allocated so many happy days and so many unhappy days and it's never a matter of always being happy or not happy, it's just that you simply have to have so many of each. i'm not certain that this is an idea he actually lives by or if it was just conversation. but it's a conversation that i remember.
and now, when i'm in the midst of such an extreme period of happiness, that conversation is coming back to me. if that theory were to hold true, one day i'm going to have to have a lot of days of unhappiness to balance out all this excessive joy.
that or i'm making up for time that seems so distant from me now i can't even recall it.