I don't know....
Have you ever looked at a relationship and wondered why that person is with them? Im pretty sure everybody has in some point of their life. Maybe out of jealousy, hurt, or just wondering what does he or she see in them that maybe the reason why I am single is because of this. Then you go into a deeper conversation with yourself and wonder if the reason you maybe in a relationship with a guy and if it is worth it. Often times I have asked why am I single, and other times I have asked why am I with this guy. I keep asking questions knowing in the back of my mind that their is no real reason or answer to any of my questions. In reality there is no real answer for my questions because I will never have the real answer. I don't know exactly why I feel this way or why I just can't live the life I want to live and just slow down and smell flowers growing while in a relationship. I don't know why I feel that I have to rush, or make people think that I am rushing them. Truth be told I am just thinking about my relationship and where it is actually going and how far it may last. Most people would not do that and maybe I should not, I just can't help it. Yesterday, I guess I got a little overbearing by how my room looked after he left and I figured he is an adult and should be able to keep a house or a room a little clean without me constantly telling him to keep it clean. But, I have to be able to understand, he has been a true bachelor for the past three other relationships he has had. He hasn't had any of his other girlfriends tell him about his leaving situation because he has been to their houses and have meet them at places. So now I have seen the other side of him where I guess other people haven't. I don't know, maybe I am a narcissist behind closed doors and I have so much opinions that my opinions are now becoming annoying. No thats not it, he's the one guy who actually likes my opinions. No its the text of all texts that he sent me "Do you think we are too opposite to have a long term relationship?"
He told me not to take it seriously or think too much into but a mind like mine I can't stop but to think about it. Plus when you word a question like don't think to much into it or over react, it makes you want to over react in some ways. I just don't know because I like him a lot I just honestly think this relationship will run its course and it will be just that. I also think when the relationship runs it course we will both know when that time comes. I already told my sister that I don't think this is going to be a long relationship by the second month we were dating just based on he's beliefs and the things he said about his sister and brother. We are polar opposites like none other. Not only that we have different political beliefs. I am surprised we have lasted this long because me being a Democrat and he is a Republican. It basically says um hello you guys are never going to agree on any issue that this government in this country stands for. Lol, I honestly have to laugh at that, because I like the debates we have because as much as they piss me and I know the way I think pisses him off I guess it gives us the finesse in our relationship. Maybe in reality I am thinking to much into right now I could really use some opinions on in sight to what you would do or say.
He told me not to take it seriously or think too much into but a mind like mine I can't stop but to think about it. Plus when you word a question like don't think to much into it or over react, it makes you want to over react in some ways. I just don't know because I like him a lot I just honestly think this relationship will run its course and it will be just that. I also think when the relationship runs it course we will both know when that time comes. I already told my sister that I don't think this is going to be a long relationship by the second month we were dating just based on he's beliefs and the things he said about his sister and brother. We are polar opposites like none other. Not only that we have different political beliefs. I am surprised we have lasted this long because me being a Democrat and he is a Republican. It basically says um hello you guys are never going to agree on any issue that this government in this country stands for. Lol, I honestly have to laugh at that, because I like the debates we have because as much as they piss me and I know the way I think pisses him off I guess it gives us the finesse in our relationship. Maybe in reality I am thinking to much into right now I could really use some opinions on in sight to what you would do or say.