Secrets
Yesterday, me and my aunt had a talk about my god cousin and his mom knows what's been going on now to. She was mad at him because he totally disrespected her in the sense she told him specifically to stay away from me and my sister. Yesterday at church we didn't even speak to each other. I think now theirs tension between us but it pissed me off more so that one he didn't even care and two he lied to my aunt saying that I wanted to be in a relationship with him. I hate liars. After my aunt told me that I wanted to push him down the stairs if I ever see him and tell him F-U!!
Anyway, my mom has yet to call me or my sister but, my grandmother thinks me and my sister are talking to her on the low which isn't true. So its pissing us off for her to continually ask us when it seems she knows more about her then we do. She sees her whenever she goes to court for her and when she hears from her from our extended family network I guess. My aunt said I can be mad at my grandmother but there is a reason she is that way because we kept the fact that we did go and see her when she was getting care the first time and we didn't tell her or my aunt what we did. Secrets keep secrets that's what my family is mostly made up of. My aunt keeps things away from me and my sister I know but she does it to protect us. My god mothers daughter saw my mom and told my aunt that she didn't even recognize her and thinks she back doing what she was doing before. She was picking up cans out of the trash can. I hate it. I told my aunt that when I look at the news I think one of these days its going to be my mom's photo on the news died from a gun shot, the weather, or starvation because she's homeless. I hate the fact that I can't help her and the only thing I can do is pray for her. I hate it
My aunt was asking my sister about our dad and how she feels about him. She thinks my sister should write a letter to him explaining how she feels about him not being there for us when we were younger and how even now he doesn't pay any mind or attention to us his own blood. I just basically told her that I didn't care about it anymore. He doesn't have the right to tell me anything about my life and if he does I won't pay him any attention at all. I just don't care or have any feeling towards him. I don't hate or loathe him I just don't care.
J.W finally got in contact with me after a week passed by. He had fractured his hand at school other than that he's ok. My friend T has been calling me every so often. He has a job working for the city so he wants to move back towards Cleveland that way he can keep his job and not be under his dad's roof. My ex Darren has been calling me to. He keeps saying he wants to meet up sometime at the library so we can catch up with each other, but something always seems to happen with him forgetting or his job holds him up. I don't care, I'm too busy with school to even flinch.
I'm at this point I don't care to be bothered with guys. Emotionally I can't handle it with my mom and school. I just want to graduate and I think I have decided on what school I want to go to when I graduate from Tri-C, I can't wait.
Anyway, my mom has yet to call me or my sister but, my grandmother thinks me and my sister are talking to her on the low which isn't true. So its pissing us off for her to continually ask us when it seems she knows more about her then we do. She sees her whenever she goes to court for her and when she hears from her from our extended family network I guess. My aunt said I can be mad at my grandmother but there is a reason she is that way because we kept the fact that we did go and see her when she was getting care the first time and we didn't tell her or my aunt what we did. Secrets keep secrets that's what my family is mostly made up of. My aunt keeps things away from me and my sister I know but she does it to protect us. My god mothers daughter saw my mom and told my aunt that she didn't even recognize her and thinks she back doing what she was doing before. She was picking up cans out of the trash can. I hate it. I told my aunt that when I look at the news I think one of these days its going to be my mom's photo on the news died from a gun shot, the weather, or starvation because she's homeless. I hate the fact that I can't help her and the only thing I can do is pray for her. I hate it
My aunt was asking my sister about our dad and how she feels about him. She thinks my sister should write a letter to him explaining how she feels about him not being there for us when we were younger and how even now he doesn't pay any mind or attention to us his own blood. I just basically told her that I didn't care about it anymore. He doesn't have the right to tell me anything about my life and if he does I won't pay him any attention at all. I just don't care or have any feeling towards him. I don't hate or loathe him I just don't care.
J.W finally got in contact with me after a week passed by. He had fractured his hand at school other than that he's ok. My friend T has been calling me every so often. He has a job working for the city so he wants to move back towards Cleveland that way he can keep his job and not be under his dad's roof. My ex Darren has been calling me to. He keeps saying he wants to meet up sometime at the library so we can catch up with each other, but something always seems to happen with him forgetting or his job holds him up. I don't care, I'm too busy with school to even flinch.
I'm at this point I don't care to be bothered with guys. Emotionally I can't handle it with my mom and school. I just want to graduate and I think I have decided on what school I want to go to when I graduate from Tri-C, I can't wait.