Thoughts of late....
Today has been one of growth as well as healing, as I reached out to my chosen family and they happily reached back. Fear and anger have left me alone and making poor decisions so often, and I have only returned with great caution, at forced times. This time, I have been wakened to that practice, which others have as well, of hiding from society when we're scared of ourselves. The consequences of ignoring a need for support and society in general are drastic, and I am happy to feel safe in leaving it behind.
If we can't be proud of our actions, we shouldn't take them. And if we find that we mistakenly have done so, a sincere apology and an effort to right the situation is all that's required.
Avoiding reality only works in your own head and sooner or later, it finds you - praise God!
Also, children who wake up at 3am must be put to sleep.
About to enter my third decade, I'm glad to reflect on a calmer, more stable life, where I am more easily accountable for my actions and more accepting and forgiving of myself and others. Of course, the work left to do is endless and I am just as much aware of that as ever. There is also a realization that making mistakes is quite often required in order to learn, and so we should welcome tests -whether or not- we pass them. In fact, the ones we fail have the potential to be the most positive experiences in the long run, the most conducive to becoming a wiser person. If I wish to do everything exactly right every time, I wish for unreality and a lack of improvement - it strikes me as very young.
Not holding one's self accountable for one's actions seems like a terrible disease. Apology is only half of the equation; righting the wrong as well as possible is the other. So many people do only the first part, which is easier because it is said rather than done. But actions, as is said, speak so much louder than words.
If we can't be proud of our actions, we shouldn't take them. And if we find that we mistakenly have done so, a sincere apology and an effort to right the situation is all that's required.
Avoiding reality only works in your own head and sooner or later, it finds you - praise God!
Also, children who wake up at 3am must be put to sleep.
About to enter my third decade, I'm glad to reflect on a calmer, more stable life, where I am more easily accountable for my actions and more accepting and forgiving of myself and others. Of course, the work left to do is endless and I am just as much aware of that as ever. There is also a realization that making mistakes is quite often required in order to learn, and so we should welcome tests -whether or not- we pass them. In fact, the ones we fail have the potential to be the most positive experiences in the long run, the most conducive to becoming a wiser person. If I wish to do everything exactly right every time, I wish for unreality and a lack of improvement - it strikes me as very young.
Not holding one's self accountable for one's actions seems like a terrible disease. Apology is only half of the equation; righting the wrong as well as possible is the other. So many people do only the first part, which is easier because it is said rather than done. But actions, as is said, speak so much louder than words.