Public non-emo post
Well I've mostly been posting private introspective posts on here for a while now... with the occasional public emo outburst...
So I figure I should post something new publicly with less of me being obnoxious.
I've finally been able to talk with some close friends about the past and everything that's happened over the past year or so. Being able to do that really helped... even more than the therapist did earlier this year. That gave me the strength to go out and work on making new friends, and so I have. I've met a couple people who are just friends online (but live fairly close to Montgomery) and a few others who I now get to spend time with pretty regularly.
Going to see random movies I might not care about just to have fun with the groups, and people I want to spend time with. Random slumber party. Concerts and omgwtf riding roller coasters at Six Flags the next day. Staying up until 7am in a motel talking and goofing off with a great new friend. :)
The past month has definitely rejuvenated me. I feel alive again. I get to make people laugh, make them feel better, be there for them.
I'm still debating as to whether I'm ready to even consider a relationship again though. Before this past month, I was definitely against relationships... but over the course of it... I've been starting to rethink that. Maybe I can trust someone again. I guess I'll just go with the flow and see what happens.
Might just be wishful thinking anyhow...
I'm definitely not gonna risk another friendship by overly complicating it. But still... I can hope :)
So I figure I should post something new publicly with less of me being obnoxious.
I've finally been able to talk with some close friends about the past and everything that's happened over the past year or so. Being able to do that really helped... even more than the therapist did earlier this year. That gave me the strength to go out and work on making new friends, and so I have. I've met a couple people who are just friends online (but live fairly close to Montgomery) and a few others who I now get to spend time with pretty regularly.
Going to see random movies I might not care about just to have fun with the groups, and people I want to spend time with. Random slumber party. Concerts and omgwtf riding roller coasters at Six Flags the next day. Staying up until 7am in a motel talking and goofing off with a great new friend. :)
The past month has definitely rejuvenated me. I feel alive again. I get to make people laugh, make them feel better, be there for them.
I'm still debating as to whether I'm ready to even consider a relationship again though. Before this past month, I was definitely against relationships... but over the course of it... I've been starting to rethink that. Maybe I can trust someone again. I guess I'll just go with the flow and see what happens.
Might just be wishful thinking anyhow...
I'm definitely not gonna risk another friendship by overly complicating it. But still... I can hope :)