My girlfriend dumped me and it sucks

Jan 03, 2009 16:49

 I have been with my girlfriend for few years. We got together after a show and it was great!
We had a great relationship and were very much in love. She is awesome and very much crazy so she had really been with many men before me. Just 1 month ago she called it off.

We had our arguments just like any other couple but the fact of the matter was that we got on great and really understood each other. She was the first girl I had loved and I knew she was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

Since we broke up I have been round there crying my eyes out and telling her how much she means to me.  We have even been out on a date to see how it went and she phoned me to tell me that she had a lovely time and still has strong feelings for me but doesn't want to give it another go.

I have learned from her friends that one of the reasons she finished it was because I never paid enough attention to her family. If you know the girls origin you will know they are very close to their families.
The thing is it's the old cliche of "not knowing what you had until it's gone" but I'm not afraid of admitting that and I realise what I done to make her upset and unhappy. Trivial things and a lack of communication are responsible for the end of this relationship and I just know they are things we can work out and become stronger. The very fact that she agreed to that date, let alone admitted she had a great time and then to add she still has feelings for me will not escape my head and I can't help but think that she doesn't really want this split and am convinced that something (probably her family) are having a heavy influence in the break up.

I am so confused. Although I want to get back with her more than anything on this earth I also need some convincing from her and she has failed in that department miserably. If she told me she no longer loved me I would probably be able to walk away but the way we have been since the split has proved otherwise.

I am now resigned to leave it for a while. I have decided to give her some time and am basically keeping my fingers crossed that it will make her see some sense, but am not holding my breath.
My dilemma is that I want to leave the country with a friend which is also something I have wanted to do all my life but the more I think about this situation the more I realise how much I love her and I want to propose to her. Is this an idiotic thing to do ?
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