Back again and all alone
I'm jealous of everyone around me. Its seems that everyone can be happy, normal, and im stuck sitting here day after day with nothing. I have no friends, my family is virtually no-existent. Even then i can hear then criticizing everything i do. Will their voice ever stop? i hurts to think of the past, it makes me anxious to think of the present, and it makes me lost to think of the future. Have things really been this bad for this long? Noone can help me, i cant help myself. i dont have what it takes to go out and have a good time. All i can do is sit here day after day and eat. I try to work as much as i can, that way i have less time to fill with more nothing. I have my books. but i have noone to talk to, except myself. I hate Jory here all the time. im tired of babysitting him but i dont have the courage to send him away. If i do that i really will be alone, last time i was alone i tried to kill myself...