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hey im bored n decided to do an update. Last time i updated i wasnt in such a good mood. Its funny how things can go from running soo smoothly to be going crap. Its holidays now so im feeling a little better, needed the break i think just to sort some things out. Mentally i dont feel any stronger but i spose ive sorted some things out. Skools gonna keep gettin to me until i finish and even tho i complain i pretty much like school, being around friends and teachers and other people in the same boat as me is reassuring, guys are another issue.
I generally take things light heartedly and joke arounnd alot but i think inside its all to mask the fact that im not coping and i dont know what i want...
i just feel so distant from everybody right now and dont know why i cant open up, i feel like im gonna crack real soon. Bah how can i be like this, one minute im all high and the next im all depressed :s nothing makes sense.
Ive decided to leave the whole guy thing out of the picture for now, until skools over, im so sick of them, one minute they are hot for ya the nxt they are cold :s i just dont need that crap rite now. i just kno i definitly dont want a guy who is a major sleaze and thinks the whole relationship revolves around sex.. i know alot of guys like that, its called getting to know the person, who they realy are.
Ugh and my parents i sware i cant do anything, most of my friends parents bought them some alcohol for this party i went to, and i even mention alcohol and im asked a bazillion questions, its like you havent been drinking have you? you better not have? Its like my god so what if i have, what difference does it make, aslong as u know when to stop! i dont have a problem with alcohol its just ugh i dont feel like i can always tlk to them, as soon as i mention things that are happening around me, they jump on me and start accusing me of doing things. like police lol anyway i think im over tired been watching the soccer, and been out partying n stuff, i'll tlk later
ciao
I generally take things light heartedly and joke arounnd alot but i think inside its all to mask the fact that im not coping and i dont know what i want...
i just feel so distant from everybody right now and dont know why i cant open up, i feel like im gonna crack real soon. Bah how can i be like this, one minute im all high and the next im all depressed :s nothing makes sense.
Ive decided to leave the whole guy thing out of the picture for now, until skools over, im so sick of them, one minute they are hot for ya the nxt they are cold :s i just dont need that crap rite now. i just kno i definitly dont want a guy who is a major sleaze and thinks the whole relationship revolves around sex.. i know alot of guys like that, its called getting to know the person, who they realy are.
Ugh and my parents i sware i cant do anything, most of my friends parents bought them some alcohol for this party i went to, and i even mention alcohol and im asked a bazillion questions, its like you havent been drinking have you? you better not have? Its like my god so what if i have, what difference does it make, aslong as u know when to stop! i dont have a problem with alcohol its just ugh i dont feel like i can always tlk to them, as soon as i mention things that are happening around me, they jump on me and start accusing me of doing things. like police lol anyway i think im over tired been watching the soccer, and been out partying n stuff, i'll tlk later
ciao